HBPastorToBe
Servant of All
Morning everyone. I would like to thank everyone for their continued prayer in my life. I know God is continually watching over me, yet I still suffer with the same problem day in and day out. Loneliness, I can go through almost anything and not be affected. But being alone for so long (relationship wise) has been very hard for me. I've tried to continue to wait for my ex-wife to return to me. It's going on four years now, the situation is different, we are in good terms, but I don't see reconciliation. I still want it somewhat, but not as much as I used to. As I've said many times before, I just desire to be happy again and I desire the same for her, and it does not have to be as one. There are many potential candidates for a relationship in my life right now, but the thing is they even seem to be being pushed in and out of my life also. Maybe I'm not asking God for the right thing according to His will. My desire is always to please God. I know waiting to get back with my wife would be pleasing. Well let me go into further detail about my ex-wife. She's a great woman, yes she made some mistakes in our marriage, the same as I have. But I don't think that is the deciding factor. I'm a Christian, and she is back and forth between Wicca and Christianity. I knew this before I married her, I knew she practiced Wicca, but I fell in love with her. I've been praying for God to take the desire to practice Wicca from her life for years now; but I can tell her desire to practice keeps resurfacing. I know the Bible says not to be unequally yoked, well I know this is exactly one of those situations. I know marriage is supposed to be forever, I know this. But what about my situation, what about situations like mine, I know I'm not the only one out here in a situation like this. Being single like this, is hard for me. If it's God's will for me to wait on her, I will wait. But I need some type of confirmation. If it's God's will for me to move on, I will do that also. But it's like my life is at a standstill. I am very thankful right now. God provides me with all my needs, but this emotional need is tearing me up inside. I really don't know what to do anymore in regards to this issue. I'm trying my best to be patient, but it's hard coming home alone. I'm 34 years old, I will be 35 next month. I'm not getting any younger. I know I'm a good man, I'm just looking for that good woman to complete me. I also miss my kids, my ex-wife constantly jumps from relationship to relationship, and lately I haven't been able to talk with my kids because of this. I know every time when her relationship status changes, because she acts different every time. This is not fair to me. I text to see how the kids are and she says fine, but never gets them to call me. What should I do? I just woke up this morning with a need to vent to someone. Please everyone, pray for me today, pray that God shows me what I should do. Pray that He makes my situation right. Pray that God mends this situation. Pray that God touches everyone involved in this situation. Have a blessed day.
