"When my father and mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up." Psalm 27:10, KJV.
Let me ask you this, honey: are you saved? Have you been washed in the Blood of the Lamb?
There is Someone Who will never desert you or forsake you NO MATTER WHAT; He loves you, loves you enough so that He gave his life on the Cross for your sins--paid the price so that you can have a GREAT relationship with God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit. He died to save you from hell, the world, the flesh, and the devil--and there is NO PROBLEM that is too big for Him. His Name is Jesus of Nazareth, the Christ--also known as Yeshua ben Yoseph of Nazareth, the Messiah. And HE ACHES for a personal relationship with you, with ALL of us! He loves you and is more than willing to help you through the suffering of what you're going through. He can take the pain and make it bearable, even irrelevant at times. If it's within His will, He can even restore the relationship between you and your mother!! He raised Lazarus from the dead, and through Him stars, galaxies, and the entire universe was created. If you **come unto Him,** He will IN NO WISE cast you out--He will not forsake or reject you if you do this in sincerity. If you take Him as your Lord and Savior, and decide to unify your life with His life, suffering, death, and resurrection, YOU WILL KNOW UNBELIEVABLE PEACE, the peace that passes understanding. He's willing to help you if you willingly take up **your cross** and follow Him! And He won't cast you out...He will never leave or forsake you. NEVER, NEVER, NEVER, NEVER!
I have prayed for you and will continue to pray, honey. Just remember, there is SOMEONE Who can wipe your tears...you're NOT ALONE!