Missions..calling For Missions And Also For Family

This year I feel like a dormant volcano exploding. The past few years have been very peaceful. About 5-6 years ago(in this general time frame) I got a distant calling for becoming a missionary. In recent years(about past 2 years) this calling has become much stronger. I feel more prepared in every way for this path. My struggle however is finding funds and a group or people to go with. It would be ideal for me to find at least 2 other people who share the same mission goals as me as I do need friends and as a woman I would feel more comfortable having a small/or large group to travel/live with in different countries.
Also I used to have no idea whether I wanted children(adopting, fostering, etc) or whether I wanted to get married. I also asked for people on here to pray for this. Recently, it's became apparent that I am ready to get married and believe this to be the Lord's will. But, my only obstacle is that my heart and prayers go out towards one man, while a totally different man is persuing me. So, realistically I may end up with someone else. But, I trust in the Lord to provide the one meant for me.
I have these two callings which are really important. Please if you have the time, continue to pray for me. Instead of a fancy career or a huge house or material possessions, I really want a spouse and a chance to become a missionary. I want to live for God alone and not for any society ideals of what I should buy, or how much I should earn, etc. I want to help people one person at a time and I want to be a good loving wife to one blessed man.

 

[manny]

Please don't just get married to an guy that you don't feel attracted to. This might be a trap from satan. And if you court this guy, the right one might feel you are taken and pick someone else. Too many marriages fail because God is not the author of it, but ourselves and sometimes out of desperation, neediness and loneliness. I too would love to go to the mission field and I feel that probably, within months, it will happen. I am fascinated with the potential of protecting children from human trafficking in Thailand. The opportunities are endless. I have met someone here that is a missionary from India and that is what she does. In Thailand, children are sold into prostitution by their own parents and family. Where are you from? I am from Canada. God bless

 

[mysaviormylord]

Thank you for the advice Manny. I already gave the guy many chances and I could have gotten married to him if he asked, even years ago. But he's always treated me like dirt and never treated me in a good biblical way. I kept on giving him chances because he was really interested in me. I just am not attracted to his careless attitude that hasn't changed in knowing him for years.

And sadly the other man is not the type to go chasing after me because of his own problems and reasons. So I cannot stay in touch with him for fear that he will think me a stalker which I'm not. I let him go. If he was the one then I trust God to make sure our paths cross again.