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Hi my brothers and sisters in Christ. I come before you asking for prayer in my marriage being restored. I believe I have been standing before I even knew what it was. My husband and I have been separated for a year and a half. The marriage was very rocky and I have accepted responsibility for my actions. I know I could have been a better wife. The amazing thing about our God is that when we go to him about a situation like this and we plead our case to him, our spouse is this and that...instead of him going to work on them he turns that finger right back on us and starts to change us and our hearts. He takes our hardened hearts and turns them to flesh. He shows us the errors of our ways. This has been the toughest thing I have had to go through but I feel it's what God wants me to do because I know that divorce is not his will. I know I am not alone because God is with me but it's hard to talk to people about it because they will just tell you to move on and God wants you to be happy. Yes, he does want me to be happy but with my husband not another man. We are not legally separated or divorced so I thank God for that. We spend time together and then he pulls away and I don't hear from him at all and it's discouraging. Can I pursue him, yes, but I don't feel that is what God wants me to do. "Be still and know that I am God" is what keeps popping into my head. It's hard not knowing what's going on on the other side of the mountain. That's why we have to walk by faith and not by sight. This hurts my little girl which breaks my heart because the last thing you want to do is leave a legacy of divorce. I am thankful for ###'s blogs and teachings which have helped me tremendously to this point but I am becoming tired. I don't doubt that God can turn all this around. This is a spiritual war, my friends, and a tough one. I would be lying to you and God if I said I never felt like giving up and just moving on but through all the battles that my husband and I have gone through God has put an unconditional love in my heart for him. I don't know if there is a third party involved, if God wants me to know he will let me know I will not pursue and find out on my own which is exactly what the old me would have done. What I have learned from all this is that I invited God to my wedding but not my marriage. I thank God that he has transformed me and my heart and hope is that he will touch upon my husband's heart as well. I don't only pray for my marriage but for all marriages that are being attacked. Divorce is not God's answer. Please pray that God gives me the strength to fight on so I can give him all the glory for the victory. Please pray that our pastors start preaching the word of God about marriages and not shy away from it. Please if you are in a marriage that is not falling apart thank God for it every day. I thank you Lord for your love and faithfulness. Forgive me for my unbelief at times...I truly want to be obedient to you. I ask you, Father, that you bless everyone on this site and that your perfect will be done in their situations. I thank you Lord for loving me and for transforming me...I want to be the woman that you want me to be and the wife you want me to be. I thank you Lord that through all this you have still blessed me so much. I love you Jesus.
