I’m very sorry about the pain in your marriage, friend. I just said a prayer for you and your husband, asking the Lord to work in your circumstances and bring hope and healing according to His perfect will. May He comfort, strengthen and guide you as you lean on Him during this difficult time. Given what you shared, should you need a listening ear, Focus on the Family has free licensed counselors that you can call at 1-800-###-####. A friend of mine found them very caring and understanding. You may also want to check out this
link for some helpful resources. I hope you’ll be encouraged by this thought from the psalmist: “The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles” (Psalm 34:17).