An excerpt of a teaching by Dan Mohler on "Becoming Love"
"The excellent way is love. As I become love, He entrusts me with stewardship of the anointing of God and the release and increase because...when I got saved, my wife was hurting, she renounced her faith because she prayed for me because she knew that if God touched me it would make her life better. In other words a spouse prays for a spouse because the spouse isn't doing so hot and they're hard to live with and they're frustrating a person and they pray to God because they're so aware of what's wrong with their spouse, so for 13 years my wife was saying...you need to change this knucklehead. God you need to do something with him, he's so frustrated, he so angry. I was all that...I am so 180...augh! Come on, I didn't pray some prayer yesterday and I'm on a high. I'm 13 1/2 years in this thing and I'm like this every day without even trying. I've never bit my lip to be a Christian. It was never noontime, and I said, 'oh that's right, I'm saved.'
And my wife said, 'and you! I prayed for him for 13 years and You've done nothing! If you've loved me, you would have changed him by now! How much do you expect me to take?! I can't take anymore! I'm done with him and I'm done with You!' That's what she said; and she was justified because her eyes were on me and my wrong.
It's called 'rightness'. When you see somebody's wrong, it makes you right. And God's 'righteous.' Any man can hold another man accountable for his sin. Anybody can live, 'he said,' 'she said.' When sin against you produces sin in you, you've been deceived cause love covers the multitude of sin. Love is never reproduced by it. When you let sin against you produce sin in you, you've been deceived. When you found the right to have a right you're already off the beaten path of truth. It is so true. So here's a hurting, angry wife that's justified her anger. I go to work and get radically born again. Imagine that. She's sitting in the yard drinking a mixed drink, smoking a joint of marijuana , which she's never done, only cause she's in pain; and she met a girl that said, 'come on, run with me.' My wife, unthinkable, so not her. She's on a lawn chair, saying, 'you know it'd be just like my husband come home and say, 'I found the Lord.' I call her five minutes later, overwhelmed, freaked out and broken by the reality of God, knowing that I lived my whole life apart from him; so aware that I was so selfish, so full of pride, such a hypocrite, so about me, I broke and was undone and I cried out from my heart, "if you're real", cause I didn't know, I was so lost, I didn't even know if God was real. I said, "I believed in Him " but I sure didn't know Him. I stood in my workplace, crying like baby, bawling loud and hard, looking at a bunch of metal rafters. "If You're really real, if you love me and forgive me of all these things and have a plan for my life…' I pointed to the ceiling, I was never so serious in my life, I said, "I will live for you!" and I can't even explain it, He made himself known to my heart. I said, "If You're real, I'm yours!" Boop…'you're real!' times that by a hundred, because I went ballistic at work. Spinning, jumping, freaking out, screaming. I couldn't even hardly bear the God reality that came upon me."
