Brothers and sisters I thank you for your prayers and words of encouragment regarding my family crisis. I am asking for you keep praying. My freinds, family and associates in my church are praying hard as well. I have spent a lot of time on my knees and in the word begging for forgiveness and healing from my Lord. I do not know where he will lead me as I seek the healing I need for my troubles both from above and through the facilities that he has provided in my community. I am seeking for a chance to at least talk with my wife some day soon, we have logistical things to discuss to make this easier for her and I as well. I also need to be able to communicate to her how hurt I am that I have hurt her and that I forgive her. I pray heavenly father that you, who are the Prince of Peace can bring peace and joy to her heart, that you can once again make her whole.
I cannot post a new prayer request here. The rules of this web site will not allow that until I can give prayer and comfort myself, i understand and accept that, yet I feel unworthy to do so as I wrestle with the demons that have stolen my soul. As I wait on my God to guard my soul. I lift up my eyes to the Hills from whence cometh my help.
I have seen in the past few days many ways that the Lord is comforting me and I praise His name with thanksgiving but I am still troubled. The problems and issues that have led to the destruction of my marriage are deep and only God and time can work to heal. Yet the dangers and the crushing blows are near at hand and urgent.
I have been reading the Psalms today. With new look at it I see Psalms 22 not only as the prophetic vision of Calvary that I have always been taught it but the way David wrote it for himself and now for me. "My God,My God, I cry. Why have you forsaken me? I cry by day and night but I have no rest. Many bulls have encompassed me. My God, be not far from me. My strength is dried up, dogs have surrounded me. Oh Lord be hasten to my assistance, save me from the lion's mouth. I will tell of your nameto my brethen and priase you in the assembly."
Please continue to pray with me brothers and sisters.
And Lord I will continue to enter your gates with thanksgiving and Praise your name in your courts.