Maby it is time for me to leave this society moving

[Bennie Deysel]

Maby it is time for me to leave this society moving away and live alone in a mountain somewhere were there is atleast water to drink I haven't tried it yet but I have tried to live by the sea but the hunger and the thirst overwhelmed me so much that I came back home to the same life I had to run away from. And here I am 2:49 am in the morning in South africa making my final decisions il be honest I am that desperate to start my life. But its okay now if I go to the mountains I most likely lose my life asking for help 27 years now on the 6 December im 28 and I stil have nothing I was just busy looking up magic spells but that isint the life I want to live again if been baptised. If you have a message from the holy spirit please let me know I give you my word my next plan to live is alone on a mountain somewhere if I lose my life brothers thats okay because thats all I have left to see how my nephew buys new sport's cars and how he enjoys life with Jesus and everything on the age of 21 he has everything I have dreamed about at night. Have all the money in the world have a girlfriend have family thats supports him have a good job.. and here I am looking up for help 27 years and stil I feel like a dog now working once a wile for a R100 a day. That is more or less 6 dollars in us money. I dont know what I can do anymore I have maby over 30 messages on this website and nothing has ever changed. I am forsaken by the world I live only to die I believe you wil die according to the way you lived so I wil die in suffering I think I wil do it away from here on the mountains and let faith take its course to my final breath because I cannot live in this society with everyone looking down at me thats why I need to go I know I dont belong here with you all. I think il just see if there is a message but I do appreciate the messages but sometimes I dont understand the words its to complicated.. just like this life of mine thats about to end

 

[Articles]

May God hear your request and grant it according to his will. In Jesus Name, Amen.

 

[Esther KM]

Ben it's normal sometimes to feel that way because we are all human but what I can tell you for sure is that,  our God in heaven has not forgotten you at all,  he knows your name,  he knows your needs and is longing to come through to your rescue,  all you need to do is believe that he loves you and cares about your needs.  He is brighter than your darkest night and stronger than your toughest fights. He is able to do exceedingly abundantly above and beyond what you could ask him to do for you.  I pray that from this day onwards,  you will choose to cast all your cares and burdens unto him,  and he shall give you peace that surpasses all human understanding.  Amen 

 

[Anonymous]

It's not complicated: DO NOT GO INTO THE HILLS TO DIE.

The Holy Spirit says STAY ALIVE, BENNIE.

 

[lab]

Father surround your son, comfort him, guide him and give him wisdom,your wisdom, your plan to work his life out, In Jesus' name we pray Amen

Reach out to a local church, someone to help you with reading the bible, praying and finding answers to help you through this. God loves you, and you must continue to believe

 

[I hear you]

Benny you are an important and unique person in this world. Do not despair. Life changes and so yours.

 

[Bennie Deysel]

Thank you all for your kindness I really cannot say anything els I feel ashamed for giving up

 

[Esther KM]

Bennie,  I am happy that you chose to listen to right voice,  the voice of God.  In the same way,  choose to believe that God loves you and believe that he always has a good plan for you. Don't give up telling God what you want him to do for you,  and if you believe he will do it beyond the shadows of your doubt. Don't hesitate to ask for prayers and support,  that's why we are here.  

I pray that the Lord will keep you and protect you from every kind of harm and danger, give you the right company of friends,  help you to appreciate the wonderful person you are and not compare yourself to any one because you are perfect in his eyes just as you are and trust in him that he will always make sure that you are at the right place at the right time,  with the right people and doing the right thing.  

Be blessed,  and may the Lord fulfill the desires of your heart. Amen

 

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