We have read your request and our hearts ache with you in this season of feeling so lost, weak, broken and utterly tired. We hear how heavy this has been, to be verbally attacked viciously for simply saying no to abuse, to have your nervous system pushed into overdrive with adrenaline and cortisol until your body is breaking down, to be pressured under extreme duress to sign false documents, and to face the very real distress of having no food in the house. To feel undefended and that your faith is weakened and to say I give up is an honest cry of exhaustion, and we want you to know that God sees you right there and He has not turned away from you.
The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit. Psalm 34:18. When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the rock that is higher than I. Psalm 61:2. God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Psalm 46:1. What you have endured is not overlooked by Him. To say no to abuse is right and good. The Lord defends the oppressed and He hears the cry of those who are mistreated. Those vicious verbal attacks against you for setting a righteous boundary are evil in His sight, and we rebuke that abuse and that injustice together before the Lord. He is your defender when you feel undefended. He says, Don't you be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness. Isaiah 41:10.
We also want to speak gently about the pressure to sign false documents. We understand the extreme pressure you have been under, but we must encourage you in love not to sign what is false, even when unscrupulous people demand it. You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor. Exodus 20:16. Lying lips are an abomination to the Lord, but those who do the truth are his delight. Proverbs 12:22. To sign a false statement is to bear false witness, and it can bring further harm to you and to others. Please do not sign anything under duress without seeking wise, godly counsel and, if possible, trustworthy legal help or an advocate from your church or community. It is right to speak the truth in love. Ephesians 4:25. God honors truth and He will honor your stand for truth even when it costs you.
Your body breaking down under such prolonged stress grieves us. The Lord knows our frame and that we are dust, and He invites the weary to come to Him for rest. Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart and you will find rest for your souls. Matthew 11:28-29. In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7. This does not mean the attacks will instantly stop, but that His peace can guard your heart and mind even in the storm. We encourage you to seek care for your physical needs as you are able, a trusted medical provider, a pastor or counselor, and practical help for food through a local church, food pantry, or community assistance. My God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19. You are not forgotten and it is not shameful to ask for help for daily bread.
You said there is no abundant life for you, only discouragement, and that your faith is weakened. We understand that feeling, and we want to remind you what Jesus said. The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly. John 10:10. The abundant life Jesus gives is not the absence of trials, but His presence and life within us through trials. When you feel you have no strength left, hear His word to you, My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. 2 Corinthians 12:9. God does not measure your faith by how strong you feel. Even when your faith feels small, He is still holding you. He is faithful when we are weak.
We noticed your request did not mention the name of Jesus Christ, and we want to speak about this with love because it is so important. Jesus said, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me. John 14:6. There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved. Acts 4:12. It is only through Jesus that we have access to God, forgiveness of sins, and the gift of eternal life. If you have not already, we encourage you to place your trust in Him, to confess that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, for with the heart one believes resulting in righteousness and with the mouth confession is made resulting in salvation. Romans 10:9-10. He is the One who defends, heals, provides, and restores.
We pray together for you now.
Father in heaven, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ and we lift up this dear one who feels so lost, tired, weak and broken. Lord, You see every vicious word spoken against them, every pressure and every sleepless night, every physical symptom of stress and breakdown. We ask You to be their refuge and defender. Surround them with Your presence, guard their heart and mind with Your peace that surpasses all understanding, and calm their nervous system with Your gentle rest. Touch their body and bring healing and strength where it has been depleted. Provide for their daily needs, Lord, put food in their house and connect them with trustworthy people who will help without exploiting them. Give them wisdom and courage to not sign what is false, and to stand in truth with Your help, and send advocates who will stand with them. Lift their discouragement and renew their faith even as a small mustard seed, remind them that You are near to the brokenhearted and that Your grace is sufficient in weakness. Lead them to the rock that is higher than they are, and let them know they are not alone and not forsaken. We pray they would know the abundant life Jesus came to give, and that they would call upon the name of Jesus and find salvation, rest and hope in Him. We ask all this in the precious name of Jesus. Amen.
We encourage you not to give up, even in this tiredness. Please reach out to a trusted pastor, a safe family member or friend, or a local church for ongoing prayer and practical support, and if your physical symptoms continue please seek medical care. You are deeply valued by God, He has not forgotten you, and we are continuing to pray that you will feel His defense, His provision, and His restoring strength day by day.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, the way You want me to know You. So that I will trust You with my life and anyway that You move in my life. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, lean not to my own understanding, acknowledge You in all my ways, and allow You to direct my footsteps and actions. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do. 
