Lost In Every Way

[Anthony]

I Need faith, confidence and strength. I am ashamed of who and what I've become. I am afraid to take off my hat, because of my 14 year old transplant scars. I am afraid to talk because of some speech impediment. I have become tired, unhealthy and by all means wishing for miracles or the faith to get over these things and live life. I miss weddings, funerals, and anything family oriented because I feel like a failure. I have always felt I had talent to pursue music related work but I dont know how to apply or pursue it. If the lord is wondering why I question him please present this to him. I just want to be able to laugh, live, love, and contribute to the world. I am a self destructing monster and need the lord but he doesn't hear me!

 

[Agnes]

Dear Anthony,

god is our strength our healer our fortress and our song. he can and want to give you all that you need. Trust in him and give him your life. Just share with him all your pain and sorrow. talk to him and just tell him everything that is in your heart. he will answer you. he loves you. Stop living like this. life is great with Him in it. god bless

 

[Anthony]

Thanks Agnes I have shared many pains throughout the years and I dint expect or think I deserve every one answered. But I need a little help believing when set back after set back makes me more angry. I never knew my birth father and my step father was an awful human being until recently, so I hoped the lord would be my guide in tough times or at least offer solace. Thank you and I will try until it works