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Cmorris
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I really need prayer. I have made choices over the years that have caused me to fall flat on my face. My father passed away in 2008, and I used what money he had left behind carelessly, I think this was my way of grieving, I wanted my daughters to have everything after they had sacrificed so much to live with and take care of their papa. Looking back I wish I had been more mature about it. The home he had left me was becoming such a financial burden on me because of the condition of it, and the good memories were turning into bad. I sold the home 2 years later and moved an hour away with my boyfriend. I love him, but he has some problems of his own he needs to sort through, He is getting seperated from the military in just a few short weeks, and says he can not afford to have an anchor(me. He says wonce I get out of boot camp we will move back in together, I am hoping it will work out because I love him very much, but I don't know if we will make it through this or not. Though he is all I have left. And at the end of this month, when he leaves I do not even know where I will live , work, have a car, be able to see my kids (which is killing me inside, I let them go live with their dad due to my financial state)I have given everything up over the last 2 years just to get by. I am trying to join the navy reserves as a last hope to get it together and build some sort of financial stability for my kids and I, but because of my age it's a struggle, my body being so out of shape at almost 30 years old. I have no family to turn to, and I know God is my only hope, he has seen me through every hard time in my life and shown me miracles of peoples kindness and things just working out that I never thought possible. I'm in a rut, I have no energy and feel lost and unable to think clearly as to what to do, my faith frayed. I need prayer, and lots of them. Thank you.
