Lost. defeated. Sad. Bought home. Full

[VeronicaL]

Lost. defeated. Sad. Bought home. Full of mold. Couldn't do anything. Paid on home couldn't live in. Lived in small room. had son. Now 3 of us in 11x14. He deserves more. No dresser, room. feel like failure. husband self employed. never enough pay monthly & rebuild home.2 clients got work done didn't pay. Got behind mortgage, shop rent, credit cards. Accounts overdrawn. 2 lawsuits. Scared. Need $11,000 by March 1st. No idea how/where to get. Locked out of shop-all personal items stored there. no way to haul/move. landlord sweet-decided let us get pers things but no way haul or place to put. tires on truck bad wouldn't pass inspection so husband couldn't get back & forth. Been staying @ shop since nov. Sleeping in lawn chair. worry bout his health. hard on marriage/son. landlord holding tools. understand but no tools can't work. Apply jobs don't hear back. have had $0 since sept. i am sad. defeated. feel son deserves more the I can give. He is my angel. Deserves happy mom. Tried to protect him. So hard to smile & act ok when losing all & everything closing in on you. Afraid he will see my stress/ tears I avoid or make excuses to not play/ b w. Then feel worse. Don't want him thinking I don't love. He's my world. Had stroke after had him then few years later emergency surgery went bad and spent 1 1/2 months in hospital. Bill huge. Need Dr/ medicine & can't. Feel my fault. Don't know how to fix anything. Don't want to burden/ embarrass son. Believe God has a plan - not sure Im strong enough to wait for it. humiliated started go fund me page- can't even get anyone to look which only added to my sadness/ defeat. I'm sorry. Lot to take in.Thank you all.

 

[flora]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[goodnewslad]

my prayers GOD give you clarity and insight even HIS WISDOM      (you would not want to trade places with me) my woes are similar    I am asking for your prayers thank you

 

[Prayer boy]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Ira Ashby]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen. :heart:

 

[WingsofaDove]

May your prayer be heard because it is in harmony with our Lord. May Love be in your heart. In Jesus name, I have prayed. Amen.

 

[VeronicaL]

Thank you so much for being there tonight.

 

[Friend of Jesus]

I know exactly how you feel, praying for you. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[K.m Binil kumar]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

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