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InChrist09
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Listen to my story because I'm losing all hope.
It's been so long since I teeter on the line of Light of Christ and The Darkness of this world. My headwaters always wanting to do the will of God but my heart is somewhat attached to this world. I'm surrounded by dark influences. I am tired of coming back to the darkness of the world to satisfy my flesh desires and then try to act like I'm still a Christian. I'm tired of being two people. I'm tired of living this double life. It's costing me and killing me. I can only see that if I don't get out quickly, my light will go out and I will be lost until I come back to my senses.
I know Jesus is holding His hand out to me to help me, but something in me is holding back from fully reaching out to Him. I want to take His hand, but my flesh wants to be in the darkness of this world, feeling good in it. But in the back of my mind, the moment I get too relaxed, I'm dead in Christ and maybe dead altogether. I will no longer care or feel what Christ desires for me. I don't want to be numb and not care. I want to be with Christ. I want to go Home.
It's been so long since I teeter on the line of Light of Christ and The Darkness of this world. My headwaters always wanting to do the will of God but my heart is somewhat attached to this world. I'm surrounded by dark influences. I am tired of coming back to the darkness of the world to satisfy my flesh desires and then try to act like I'm still a Christian. I'm tired of being two people. I'm tired of living this double life. It's costing me and killing me. I can only see that if I don't get out quickly, my light will go out and I will be lost until I come back to my senses.
I know Jesus is holding His hand out to me to help me, but something in me is holding back from fully reaching out to Him. I want to take His hand, but my flesh wants to be in the darkness of this world, feeling good in it. But in the back of my mind, the moment I get too relaxed, I'm dead in Christ and maybe dead altogether. I will no longer care or feel what Christ desires for me. I don't want to be numb and not care. I want to be with Christ. I want to go Home.
