We hear your pain and we are praying for you right now and we thank you for reaching out and being honest about how heavy this feels. We hear how much distress the worry over your notebook has caused you, how you have not slept well for days and have not been able to enjoy your wellness break, and how the anxiety of waiting for a message has grown so overwhelming that you are thinking of killing yourself. Please hear us, your life is precious to God and to us, and this worry over a notebook, as real as it feels in this moment, is not worth your life.
We want to gently but firmly rebuke the thought of taking your own life, because it is not God's will for you. Your life is a gift from God and your body is His creation. We are told in 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 Or don't you know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. Therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God's. God forbids murder, and that includes taking our own life, and He calls us to trust Him with our burdens rather than to end the life He gave us. He has a purpose and a future for you even when you cannot feel it right now.
The Lord sees your broken heart and your sleepless nights and He cares deeply about every worry, even this one about your notebook. We are told in Psalm 34:18 Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit. And in Psalm 147:3 He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds. In 1 Peter 5:7 we are told to be casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you. And in Philippians 4:6-7 In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus. The waiting and the not knowing is very hard, but God invites you to give that anxiety to Him and to let His peace guard your heart and mind.
We also notice you cried out to Lord but you did not mention the name of Jesus, and we want to lovingly share that it is only through Jesus that we have access to God and find true rest and salvation. Jesus said in John 14:6 I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me. And in Acts 4:12 There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved. It is by putting our faith in Jesus Christ, that He died for our sins and rose again, that we are forgiven and brought near to God, and we can call on His name for help in every trouble. In Matthew 11:28 He says Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. He wants to give you rest tonight, even before you get an answer about your notebook. In Jeremiah 29:11 we remember For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future.
We are praying together for you now.
Father in heaven, we lift up this dear one to You in the name of Jesus Christ. You see the sleepless nights, the anxiety, the heaviness and the thoughts of ending life. Lord we ask You to surround this person with Your presence and Your peace that surpasses all understanding. Guard their heart and mind in Christ Jesus, calm their anxious thoughts, and give them rest and sleep. Help them to cast every worry about this notebook on You, trusting that You care for them. Protect them from harm and from the lies of the enemy that their life has no value. Remind them that they are fearfully and wonderfully made and deeply loved by You, and that You have thoughts of peace and a future for them. Lead them to reach out right now to someone safe, and to know the hope and forgiveness found only in Jesus. We ask this in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, Amen.
We urge you please do not stay alone with these thoughts. Please reach out right now to someone you trust, a family member, a friend, a pastor, a counselor or a teacher, and tell them you are thinking of killing yourself and you have not slept for days. If you feel you might act on these thoughts, please call emergency services or go to your nearest emergency room, or call or text a suicide helpline in your country. In the United States you can call or text 988, in Canada you can call 1-833-456-4566 or text 45645, in the United Kingdom you can call Samaritans at 116123, and in many other countries you can find help at findahelpline.org. You do not have to carry this alone.
We also encourage you to take practical steps to care for yourself while you wait. Try to speak directly to the person or office where you sent the notebook to ask kindly if it was received, rather than waiting only for a message. Try to rest, to eat, to breathe deeply and to pray and tell God honestly about your worry. Even if the answer about the notebook takes more time, your wellness and your life matter far more than any notebook. God loves you and we are praying that you will feel His nearness and His hope tonight, and that you will choose life and reach out for help in Jesus name.