olivebranch
Servant of All
Lord we all have our struggles in life. I have bi polar disorder. Dear Lord I've been really ill. I lost my perception with reality a few days ago. I had a manic episode and I didn't realize it. I hurt people during this mania. I made people sad and I ended relationships. I know that's not a 100% excuse and you should know what's right and wrong. Lord you know I meant well. I never wanted to hurt anyone. I never meant to lie. For me it was a reality. My illness made me very sick. I am shocked ashamed heartbroken angry and now in the deepest depression of my life. Lord how do fix this? I can't tell people I'm bipolar. Lord I take responsibility for this. It's my fault and I will have to love with this guilt forever. I loved Devan. I wanted to marry him. Please look after him and his mom. I've lost it all. And I can't see the light in the darkness. I'm drowning. Forgive me Lord. Amen
