Father, praying for cleanliness in his word...& realizing that Pastors are human too. Please try to focus on God and give your talents to God not focusing on the Pastor. You need to get some counciling now. Always find an answer through your heart and lean not to yourself but to the Lord he is your strength. I pray that u serve him and I pray with your talents that you have to...................... make the Lord a happiness within.............. and trust in him for he is good. Not taking away your life or any bodily parts but giving them by returning to God loving him in thought word and deed.... I pray you question yourself why he place you here. Realizing that you ARE TALENTED...............and needed in this world.............Yo change others lives and to add to their happiness along with yours by helping others,,,,Please I pray talk to this Pastor and let him be aware of your feelings knowing that if you face this problem you will be one within yourself and with God. Praying you take strength in yourself overcoming the devil and enjoy your life that God intended you to love...Amen...