Tim12345
Disciple of Prayer
Hi all.
My name is Tim. I desperately need help. My health is failing me in a bad way, so my energy level is very low. And making things enormously worse, for some strange reason, after many many years in business, recently almost no sales are coming to my business. I spent the last year tripling the number of items we offer for sale, which, by anyone's measure, should increase sales, but instead sales have gone down 90%. That's not down to 90% that is down 90% - meaning only 10% of what it was for years. It is like someone has sabotaged it. I cannot determine why there are no sales & only very little money coming in. Bills are piling up. Foreclosure on my home is looming. Cutoff notices are coming continually. Suppliers and vendors for my business seem to be cheating me every chance they get. I have to constantly watch every step to catch what they are doing. It has all become overwhelming. Even though I have some faithful and wonderful customers, there's not even close to enough money coming in to sustain. I have been trying to consider the little income I have like the few loaves & fishes that fed the thousands, giving thanks for what there is coming in, but the bill collectors don't see it that way and the little is not spreading to cover the needs. I've been a Christian for decades, but of late, I cannot hear God telling me how to fix this. I've always had some leading as to what next steps are for me to take - what His direction for me is - but the past few months, it is like He is too busy for me. The one or two people who know what I'm going through are amazed at how Job-like it is. Even I am amazed at it - even to fine details like feeling "fever in my bones." There are times when just a section of my bones, shoulder, elbows, etc., feeling like they are on fire. You could put your hand a few inches about the area and feel intense heat coming off that area. And the pain is like nothing I have ever felt. I have no family, friends are fleeting and poor - I'm the guy who usually helps them. I am scared and do not understand why this is happening. I have no idea what to do to fix it. I've asked God repeatedly to tell me what I did to cause all this or what I'm doing wrong. I hear nothing back, which I do not understand. My life's dream and goal has been and is to build a Bible research center for people in ministry - including Sunday School teachers. A place where they can come & do research for their lessons, sermons, etc. Bible research and theology books are sooo expensive, not many people can afford to have much of a library. I've not been a rich man, so progress has been slow. I have been able to build up several thousand books & things, but nowhere to put them so they can be useful. I've put out feelers at church & sure, they would take it all, but who knows what they would do with it - probably sell it all off in pieces - which certainly does not the vision. So I have determined to pray and fast until I hear an answer from God and there is a clear definitive breakthrough. If the answer comes, God knows I will do it, whatever it is. If no answer comes and I die, so be it. I have come to the point of complete exhaustion and I cannot go on the way things have been recently. In fact, the typing of this payer request is all I have been able to get done today. I don't even know what to ask you all to pray for - an answer and breakthrough or let me go home to be with the Lord & enjoy peace. Just so the suffering is over, PLEASE. The pain of not hearing God's closeness is worse than the pain in my physical body. I identify with the Psalmist when he said "Take not thy Holy Spirit from me!" I have never in my life been this scared, lonely, and alone. And yes, I’ve fully examined the thought that “If you find yourself not next to God, guess who moved.” Well if such things are the only thing to consider, then we need to remove the book of Job from the Bible. And if “sin” is the only thing that causes God’s blessings & abundance to be withheld, then wow, celebrities and tycoons must be the most spiritual people on earth – NOT. The only tiny bit that comes to mind is that there is safety in numbers and if I was a group instead of just me, the devil would not be able to cause so much heartache. I hope someone feels led to pick up this prayer with me and stand with me. The Lord said that if two or more agree about anything they ask for - it will be done for them. I have the feeling that a quickie band-aid prayer isn't going to get it done, this is some spiritual battle like I have never seen before. So if you are a prayer warrior, please pick up this battle with me. I don't think it is allowed for me to post my phone number or other such contact information or I would - it would be nice to hear people's thoughts. Thank you for reading my request.
My name is Tim. I desperately need help. My health is failing me in a bad way, so my energy level is very low. And making things enormously worse, for some strange reason, after many many years in business, recently almost no sales are coming to my business. I spent the last year tripling the number of items we offer for sale, which, by anyone's measure, should increase sales, but instead sales have gone down 90%. That's not down to 90% that is down 90% - meaning only 10% of what it was for years. It is like someone has sabotaged it. I cannot determine why there are no sales & only very little money coming in. Bills are piling up. Foreclosure on my home is looming. Cutoff notices are coming continually. Suppliers and vendors for my business seem to be cheating me every chance they get. I have to constantly watch every step to catch what they are doing. It has all become overwhelming. Even though I have some faithful and wonderful customers, there's not even close to enough money coming in to sustain. I have been trying to consider the little income I have like the few loaves & fishes that fed the thousands, giving thanks for what there is coming in, but the bill collectors don't see it that way and the little is not spreading to cover the needs. I've been a Christian for decades, but of late, I cannot hear God telling me how to fix this. I've always had some leading as to what next steps are for me to take - what His direction for me is - but the past few months, it is like He is too busy for me. The one or two people who know what I'm going through are amazed at how Job-like it is. Even I am amazed at it - even to fine details like feeling "fever in my bones." There are times when just a section of my bones, shoulder, elbows, etc., feeling like they are on fire. You could put your hand a few inches about the area and feel intense heat coming off that area. And the pain is like nothing I have ever felt. I have no family, friends are fleeting and poor - I'm the guy who usually helps them. I am scared and do not understand why this is happening. I have no idea what to do to fix it. I've asked God repeatedly to tell me what I did to cause all this or what I'm doing wrong. I hear nothing back, which I do not understand. My life's dream and goal has been and is to build a Bible research center for people in ministry - including Sunday School teachers. A place where they can come & do research for their lessons, sermons, etc. Bible research and theology books are sooo expensive, not many people can afford to have much of a library. I've not been a rich man, so progress has been slow. I have been able to build up several thousand books & things, but nowhere to put them so they can be useful. I've put out feelers at church & sure, they would take it all, but who knows what they would do with it - probably sell it all off in pieces - which certainly does not the vision. So I have determined to pray and fast until I hear an answer from God and there is a clear definitive breakthrough. If the answer comes, God knows I will do it, whatever it is. If no answer comes and I die, so be it. I have come to the point of complete exhaustion and I cannot go on the way things have been recently. In fact, the typing of this payer request is all I have been able to get done today. I don't even know what to ask you all to pray for - an answer and breakthrough or let me go home to be with the Lord & enjoy peace. Just so the suffering is over, PLEASE. The pain of not hearing God's closeness is worse than the pain in my physical body. I identify with the Psalmist when he said "Take not thy Holy Spirit from me!" I have never in my life been this scared, lonely, and alone. And yes, I’ve fully examined the thought that “If you find yourself not next to God, guess who moved.” Well if such things are the only thing to consider, then we need to remove the book of Job from the Bible. And if “sin” is the only thing that causes God’s blessings & abundance to be withheld, then wow, celebrities and tycoons must be the most spiritual people on earth – NOT. The only tiny bit that comes to mind is that there is safety in numbers and if I was a group instead of just me, the devil would not be able to cause so much heartache. I hope someone feels led to pick up this prayer with me and stand with me. The Lord said that if two or more agree about anything they ask for - it will be done for them. I have the feeling that a quickie band-aid prayer isn't going to get it done, this is some spiritual battle like I have never seen before. So if you are a prayer warrior, please pick up this battle with me. I don't think it is allowed for me to post my phone number or other such contact information or I would - it would be nice to hear people's thoughts. Thank you for reading my request.
