Anonymous
Beloved of All
Lord Jesus Christ, I am praying again here.
Lord, what sign is there here so that I might know You have a future for me in music? Is there any sign You can show me to give me strength, God? Will You please show me some sign in my life that will keep me going - will you strengthen this tree I have planted in Your name Jesus?
Here I drink a communion with You God, - I drink the wine that Jesus commanded we should drink - and He said we would be blessed if we did this. The passover is coming soon - and God I am grateful for the lamb Jesus Christ, our bulwark, and our salvation, and our High Priest, and the only ears that can possibly hear my prayer.
God, I am at an end with music. You raised, and no other raised, but You Yahweh Jesus Christ - You raised a musical child to You, and You gave me a name - and You put it in my heart to go forth into the world, and to spread the word of God through song, and the message of the gospel You put in those songs You gave me to sing.
But Lord, the world has stolen from me, and all of the bounty You gave me to give is taken by the thief - and there is no man restoring to me the equity for my labor - and so I return to You now, at 26 years old, broken in my soul in communion with You and let me God say the prayer how it has to be said in order for the answer to come with great great haste.
Lord Jesus Christ, I need a change, a great great change with music in my life, Jesus. If You want me to be a musician, please give me those things a musician has - like listeners, people who understand whatever message it is You give me to put into song at a given time - all of those things that I need in order to continue God - I feel my heart needs them now because I am starting to fail inside.
This community can testify to me weakening here, as time goes on. This community, Your body, can testify to my constant prayer - and they are here also in the spirit to pray with me.
This prayer is for me, but it is not for me, God. It is for those that my life's work is for - people I do not know, people that only You know.
I can't keep this up, because I am a man, and I am not an angel imbued with virtue and immortality, - and I am not the Son of God, imbued with all the power of God, - but I am a sinner, and my servitude to the Lord Jesus is out of my debt to Him for the price He payed for me at the cross.
God, You have saved me from so much. You have shown me so much. You have bless me greatly, - and if I should try to count those blessings You've given me I would fail - because they pass beyond my periphery, and Your grace and mystery are such that mankind is not always, and most of the time is not aware, of all of those wonderful loving things You are up to.
God, do You even love me anymore? Or am I so fallen that there is no saving? I am coming to the fork in the road, Lord, and the devil is speaking in my ear saying: there is no future for you, M.
But I hear You also saying as You always have: come to me, and pray to me, and I will hear you, - come into My temple to worship, and I will heal all of your wounds and restore you.
My soul teeters on this edge, Jesus, and on this edge my whole life is depending - that the Lord might show me that there is indeed an intended audience for these things You've given me to do on earth, - and I know it is not by works that I am to be redeemed, - and I know that there is no credit to me for any work, so that I should not boast at all -
But Lord Jesus, there has also been no harvest in my life regarding music - and every year I go out to plant, and the fields remain barren, and the sun beats down, and the rain never comes, and even the best seeds I have dry out to ash.
Be with me God, because now I am indeed weak - and around me I am surrounded with tribulation, and temptation, and many different kinds of very deep pain - and I know that alone I cannot withstand it.
If You do not help me Jesus Christ, I will fall away, and I will be swallowed by the mouth of hell. So I pray to You Yahweh God of the Host, through Your Son the Lord Jesus and the minister to those who call on Your name, and the temple for God since before the beginning, - and I ask for all of these things to come to pass.
God, let me have the day where I come into Your temple, and in my eyes there are the tears of a servant who knows his Lord has seen him in the field working till he is broken, - let me have the day where I come into Your temple carrying a basket as large as I am earthly able, filled with every kind of good fruit - and let me give thanks to You God, because You saw me a far way off, and sent for me.
I ask for all of these things according to the promise of Christ Jesus, when He said that if I asked in His name it would without any doubt come to pass. I believe that should You will it Yahweh Jesus, it will indeed come to pass, and I need not worry any more about it.
I love You God, in Jesus name I pray amen.
Lord, what sign is there here so that I might know You have a future for me in music? Is there any sign You can show me to give me strength, God? Will You please show me some sign in my life that will keep me going - will you strengthen this tree I have planted in Your name Jesus?
Here I drink a communion with You God, - I drink the wine that Jesus commanded we should drink - and He said we would be blessed if we did this. The passover is coming soon - and God I am grateful for the lamb Jesus Christ, our bulwark, and our salvation, and our High Priest, and the only ears that can possibly hear my prayer.
God, I am at an end with music. You raised, and no other raised, but You Yahweh Jesus Christ - You raised a musical child to You, and You gave me a name - and You put it in my heart to go forth into the world, and to spread the word of God through song, and the message of the gospel You put in those songs You gave me to sing.
But Lord, the world has stolen from me, and all of the bounty You gave me to give is taken by the thief - and there is no man restoring to me the equity for my labor - and so I return to You now, at 26 years old, broken in my soul in communion with You and let me God say the prayer how it has to be said in order for the answer to come with great great haste.
Lord Jesus Christ, I need a change, a great great change with music in my life, Jesus. If You want me to be a musician, please give me those things a musician has - like listeners, people who understand whatever message it is You give me to put into song at a given time - all of those things that I need in order to continue God - I feel my heart needs them now because I am starting to fail inside.
This community can testify to me weakening here, as time goes on. This community, Your body, can testify to my constant prayer - and they are here also in the spirit to pray with me.
This prayer is for me, but it is not for me, God. It is for those that my life's work is for - people I do not know, people that only You know.
I can't keep this up, because I am a man, and I am not an angel imbued with virtue and immortality, - and I am not the Son of God, imbued with all the power of God, - but I am a sinner, and my servitude to the Lord Jesus is out of my debt to Him for the price He payed for me at the cross.
God, You have saved me from so much. You have shown me so much. You have bless me greatly, - and if I should try to count those blessings You've given me I would fail - because they pass beyond my periphery, and Your grace and mystery are such that mankind is not always, and most of the time is not aware, of all of those wonderful loving things You are up to.
God, do You even love me anymore? Or am I so fallen that there is no saving? I am coming to the fork in the road, Lord, and the devil is speaking in my ear saying: there is no future for you, M.
But I hear You also saying as You always have: come to me, and pray to me, and I will hear you, - come into My temple to worship, and I will heal all of your wounds and restore you.
My soul teeters on this edge, Jesus, and on this edge my whole life is depending - that the Lord might show me that there is indeed an intended audience for these things You've given me to do on earth, - and I know it is not by works that I am to be redeemed, - and I know that there is no credit to me for any work, so that I should not boast at all -
But Lord Jesus, there has also been no harvest in my life regarding music - and every year I go out to plant, and the fields remain barren, and the sun beats down, and the rain never comes, and even the best seeds I have dry out to ash.
Be with me God, because now I am indeed weak - and around me I am surrounded with tribulation, and temptation, and many different kinds of very deep pain - and I know that alone I cannot withstand it.
If You do not help me Jesus Christ, I will fall away, and I will be swallowed by the mouth of hell. So I pray to You Yahweh God of the Host, through Your Son the Lord Jesus and the minister to those who call on Your name, and the temple for God since before the beginning, - and I ask for all of these things to come to pass.
God, let me have the day where I come into Your temple, and in my eyes there are the tears of a servant who knows his Lord has seen him in the field working till he is broken, - let me have the day where I come into Your temple carrying a basket as large as I am earthly able, filled with every kind of good fruit - and let me give thanks to You God, because You saw me a far way off, and sent for me.
I ask for all of these things according to the promise of Christ Jesus, when He said that if I asked in His name it would without any doubt come to pass. I believe that should You will it Yahweh Jesus, it will indeed come to pass, and I need not worry any more about it.
I love You God, in Jesus name I pray amen.
