Jesus will give you what your heart desires if you trust Him. Through the love of God and faith in his power you CAN have a good answer from the provider God who DOES LOVE and wish to give you good things. Matthew 6:26 "See the birds of the sky, that they don't sow, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns. Your heavenly Father feeds them. Aren't you of much more value than they?" Luke 11:11 "You fathers--if your children ask for a fish, do you give them a snake instead?Or if they ask for an egg, do you give them a scorpion? Of course not! So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him." Pslam 53:3 "God looks down from heaven on the children of man to see if there are any who understand, who seek after God." Hebrews 11:6 But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that comes to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him. I pray that you are provided for.