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Diane M Wooden
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I am 39 years old and I have an addiction to marijuana. It is also killing me I fear. I have had to have my spleen out in June this year due to an enlarged abcess filled spleen. I could of died during this time if it had errupted. I am also bi polar and I'm struggling like hell to get this addiction to stop. I don't want to do rehab I want to believe that through Christ I can heal on my own. I would like prayers for my husband as well. he is diabetic and he is struggling with me as he loves me so much he can't say no to me and I love my husband very much. I really do we have been married 5 years and we have been through hell. We have suffered individually and together for losses and loves and illness and age difference. (he's 58 I'm 39) I feel like I am loosing myself sometimes and I hate that feeling I want to relish in Gods love and have him come into my life and stay. I have been told by some people that I have the devil in me and I am a nice person very considerate and kind but because of my bi polar i have cut myself and overdosed several times. I don't want those feelings to come back. I want to move on and turn 40 with respect and love of life. I want to turn everything around with Gods help and get to the person I know I can be!
