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Angela
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My name is Angela. It has been 7 years since I dedicated my life to listen to the word of the lord and attempt to do his will. Jesus has changed my life and my heart. I have to admit that I always new he was there, but my knowledge about what he wants for my life expanded over the past years. I am a server at my church, and I teach the word of the lord to many kids wanting to receive christ in their hearts.
However, there is still one doubt in my heart. I have prayed to him, wondering if I will ever become married and form my own family. Every year it has been a different response. He has responded...."have faith, believe, ask and it should be given, think positive".... and many more. Finally, this year as I read the bible I felt that he was asking me not only to be patient, but to believe in that desire that he himself placed in my heart. For some reason, I still question myself. I don't want this desire of mine which is to serve him as a wife and as a mother; to be an obsession of mine. I want this desire to be what God wants for me. Since as of right now i still haven't found that special someone....... well I wonder if this really is what God wants for me. Every year I've learned to love him more than anything, I've learned to accept his will no matter what it is. I am 30 years old, and I wonder if I should stop praying for this special someone to come. I don't want to ask for something that is not God's will. Pray for me so that I can clearly see and understand what God wants for me. Whether it is to serve him as a single woman or to serve him as a wife and mother in the near future. I don't want this desire of my heart to intervene in my love for him. Please pray for me so that I may see his plan for me without question and doubt.
With very much appreciation,
Angela
However, there is still one doubt in my heart. I have prayed to him, wondering if I will ever become married and form my own family. Every year it has been a different response. He has responded...."have faith, believe, ask and it should be given, think positive".... and many more. Finally, this year as I read the bible I felt that he was asking me not only to be patient, but to believe in that desire that he himself placed in my heart. For some reason, I still question myself. I don't want this desire of mine which is to serve him as a wife and as a mother; to be an obsession of mine. I want this desire to be what God wants for me. Since as of right now i still haven't found that special someone....... well I wonder if this really is what God wants for me. Every year I've learned to love him more than anything, I've learned to accept his will no matter what it is. I am 30 years old, and I wonder if I should stop praying for this special someone to come. I don't want to ask for something that is not God's will. Pray for me so that I can clearly see and understand what God wants for me. Whether it is to serve him as a single woman or to serve him as a wife and mother in the near future. I don't want this desire of my heart to intervene in my love for him. Please pray for me so that I may see his plan for me without question and doubt.
With very much appreciation,
Angela
