I'm a few years younger than you and have a bit different of health issues, but I can definitely relate with the pain you are going through. I pray that God would heal you, filling your heart, body, and soul with His love, joy, and peace which passes all understanding. (Philippians 4:7) And I pray that God would provide you with a wonderful husband and children soon.
I'd really appreciate your prayers for me too. My health has gone downhill over the past several weeks due to heartbreak, and I long for a husband and children too. This longing in my heart has been there for a long time with very few glimmers of hope, so I really feel your pain with the "Hell on earth/life is pointless" kind of thoughts.
Hang in there, and may God bless you in ways far more wonderful than you could ever imagine! After all, His thoughts and ways are much higher than ours! (Isaiah 55:9)
By the way, though I have experienced abuse before, I can only imagine how traumatic those other terrible life events you mentioned were for you. I do not want to disrespect or diminish the amount of pain you experienced. But I do pray that God would provide healing for your past just as He provides healing in the present and future for you. May He provide you with an incredible joy that only you can experience fully that will come after all the pain you faced in the past. (Proverbs 14:10 and Psalm 30:5) God bless!