I am living with chemical post-traumatic stress disorder of this image that retriggers PTSD upon noticing `unholy good and evil religious intervention, and red light.
This fear interferes with communication, decision-making, thoughts, and behavior. LORD God Almighty Holy of Truth, help me to explain! My anxiety is telling me that when my grandma is speaking to me, she is speaking with a translated sentence from angels, witchcraft, pagans, or devils. I believe she spoke to me, talking about her regular task, such as making dinner. My anxiety is telling me that she told me that I was a heathen, pointed at the AC unit, and then, when I looked at what she pointed at, it reaffirmed that I am a heathen. I believe that she is telling me that I don't have the holy spirit, and that I don't understand what she says, while she speaks about the mundane tasks she does. I think they are calling me a heathen because I have a fear of the praying hands image during a drug overdose, and this fear is causing my Christian fixation. The red fear of the praying hands, although rather timely from God due to the russian & ukraine war, is causing me to look at where people point at. The further vexation is the bull and the cat with their fixations on red lights, and the rather dehumanizing word said that I would respond to called kitty. Reading the Holy Bible and praying I guess, doesn't matter while the ghosts and spirits and god reaffirms my disbelief. Because the church preaches the Acts in the Holy Bible, I am in disbelief about the manner and character of my family as pretenders who got a second chance at a mature presentation of themselves because of Jesus. Another issue with the church was their putting gospel texts on the upper left and right walls. The problem with this is that they make the hand gesture, and the crowd and I turn our heads to look at the gospel texts on the left and right walls. This conditioning is over a multi-decade practice, and the further press is them preaching repeatedly that the LORD has no respect of persons. The one saving grace is the Philippians peace of god that surpasseth all understanding. The church I attended is an apostolic bible church that uses the King James Version of the holy bible. The apostolic bible polyglot delivers from being tested, while the king james bible and the prayers have asked us to take us through the test and trials. I believe they only saved the older generation, due to them being jealous & happy about the younger generation with technology. The fear causes calmness & comfort about devils. The LORD Jesus, please destroy the spirit are energies that cause deficets to a person. I believe this is some form of revenge, and I wish the LORD would destroy the mockers, and abusers of advantage. I believe my body was invaded by other spirits and souls to try me out for religious fear. Medication has reduced a lot of unacceptable aggression. Jesus, I wish I had adderall, gym, protein and nutrition for muscle building and physical renewal, coffee, and diet coke. Thank you, Jesus, for peace, providence, and progress in Jesus' name. Amen.