Life

[kendraj]

Hi my name is Kendra. I'm requesting prayer to keep me strong recently I've been suffering from depression and anxiety and I've been trying very hard to find confidence and self-esteem in myself. Today I finished my ballet class and it felt so good considering that I haven't finished anything that I've started in years. I'm 29 years old and a single mom and sometimes I feel it's to late to go into something like this but I love ballet. Still yet I have a long way to go. I want to be a dancer/entertainer or better yet a professional ballet dancer. I love the way it makes me feel and it sometimes makes me feel beautiful and it gives me hope. But I lack a lot of confidence when it comes to this I'm not going to give up and I plan on going back next semester but I feel I can do so much better if I had a little more faith and focus to get this done. I pray that I get better with this dance class and with ballet. Improve my self-esteem, self-confidence, and I just want to float across stage. I want this I want it really bad regardless of how far I am from professsional but I do want to get better at it and also regardless of my age. I feel passionate about it but sometimes I feel it's hard to tell when dancing and I don't know how to bring out what I feel deep inside I don't know how to incorporate that into my dance when performing. Sometimes I feel that I really want this more that others in the class and some even felt that I shouldn't I've been commended towards the end. I really want it but I feel that my shyness because I've been shy all my life gets in the way cause I care too much about my apperance and what others think and how old I am. It took me my whole life to figure out what I reallly wanted and I really want to give this a genuine go with all my heart despite my lack of self-confidence, self-esteem, my shyness and my age. I really want to shine like never before because this is my passion and I want to be able to be more dedicated and committed to it and have the right people in my life to help my dreams come true. I'm a lost soul that still neeeds to be found.

 

[kendraj]

Hi this is Kendra again. I'd also like to request prayer for other parts of my life that aren't quite in place yet. Such as my social life. I really want to be closer to people and be able to share my experiences with people. My whole life I've pretty much been a loaner and I'm tired of being by myself. I spend a lot of time alone by myself and a lot of time studying and in self meditation. To the point that it seems like I have no life outside books, school or more so my house. I really want to open up to people slowly, surly, but confidently and be able to bond. I would like to be closer to my family my sisters in particular. But I also want to know what it's like to have the love and affection of a man. I haven't been on a date in how god knows how long. And the only man I truly loved and probably still holding onto although were not together is my daughters father that I pray that I can let go of so that I can make room for another man in my life. Someone who would treat me and my daughter right. And we're looking for similar things and look to get married and start a family not so soon but in the future. It's not that I need a man but I want a man and at times because I feel the need to be strong it's hard for me to admit. In fact it's hard for me to express emotions to someone I reallly like and want to get to know. I'd like to do so more. Other than that I would like to develop more outside activities that probably doesn't involve, school or home. I honestly want to stop being afriad to me and take a huge leap into my future without holding back. Express who I am inside and out. Be the best that I can be. Stop being afraid to be myself, learn to love, and forgive myself and others, fufil my love and passion. I want to be less shy in my life and my experiences. I want to be able to trust myself and others. I want to be able to laugh once again and not take life so seriously or take what it's got for granted. I want to be able to smile more and be friendly. Learn to live for the here and now and have fun while doing it. I'd like to attract all of this into my life as soon as possible. I'm excited!!!

 

[bluebirds38]

DEAR LORD, I PRAY THAT YOU ANSWER KENDRAJ PRAYERS, I PRAY THAT YOU BRING BLESSINGS, HEALINGS, STRENGTH, GUIDENCE, DIRECTION, TO KENDRAJ. I PRAY THAT YOU WATCH OVER AND PROTECT KENDRAJ. IN JESUS NAME AMEN