pray4mepls
Prayer Partner
Let me start by saying I did not go to work today because a lot of things are running in my mind. I was thinking that anytime soon I might go crazy. I'm starting to forget some things in my life, like misplacing my bag somewhere. One of the things that bother me is that I always get depressed every time I wake up in the midst of my sleep. I'm looking for someone to talk to, so what I do is I get up from bed even if I'm still sleepy just to go out and go to an internet cafe to be online on Facebook to somehow socialize and somehow the feeling of being alone subsides. The second thing that bothers me is my job. Before, my team leader (supervisor) used to be nice to me, always considering my lates and always believing in my reason for absences. Our team was trained for a new line of business, and from that time, she started to become so different. She got mad because in the past our score as a team did not meet the goal. So, what I did in the month of May and June, I made sure that I will not have any absences, which did not make her that happy. Now I don't know what to do. I'm afraid to lose my job because it's my only source of income, but I was not able to make it today because I'm so stressed up and pressured by my team lead. I'm also stressed out on completing my loan requirements with another lending company since the first lending company I applied to for a loan declined my application. Please pray that I still keep my job despite this absence and I hope that this will be the last absence that I will have due to stress, pressure, and depression. I'm so afraid of what tomorrow may bring me because of my situation right now. Not all people I know of understand this kind of situation I'm in. I'm afraid that I might wake up without a job. How will I pay my rent? Please pray that God will clean this mess in my life because sometimes I just want to commit suicide because nobody seems to understand. I have always prayed that God will get me through this situation already, but I'm still here, that's why I need your prayers guys to make my prayer stronger. Before, when I was still studying, every time I encountered things like this and prayed, God eventually got me out of the bad or lonely situation, but now I wonder what takes God so long to respond to my prayers and to provide resolution to my problems, but I'm still praying over and over before sleeping, before eating, and every time I feel worried about my problems. Please pray that God gets me through this situation as soon as possible because I don't know until when I can endure this pain and heartache. I pray that God blesses you, in Jesus' name! Amen.
