keep me in your prayers

[bsj220]

long story short my husband had affair 3 years ago. he lives with this woman who is married as well. we are not divorced because of financial reasons. i assumed the bills and the house. our daughter is now 18 and she will be graduating next month.

i have not dated or seen anyone since this happened. i firmly believe that i shouldnt do this since i am still married. to tell you the truth for some stupid reason i still have feelings for this man. why i dont know. i have been asked out by really nice guys but i feel so guilty that i cant do it. i feel i am cheating even though we havent been together in 3 years. my emotions are all over the place. i am depressed one minute and the next i am putting a fake smile on my face to show my family and friends. to make matters worst i was talking to him and we was talking about graduation. i finished the conversation and he ended with i love you! i pretended like i didnt hear it. the next day he called because he had the money for his part of things and ask me did i hear what he said. i acted like i still didnt know what he was talking about. he said i told you yesterday that i love you and you didnt respond. i said how am i suppose to respond you still live with her and going home to her. those words dont mean anything. he said whether you believe it or not i do and i know i have done you so wrong. trust me when i say i want to make it right. he said he dont know why still goes home to her. i said well until you figure it out we have nothing to talk about when it comes to this.

on top of all of this our daughter seems to be taken the toll of this rocky course. i have tried to do everything i can and not bring her into things. she is now dating this boy that already has a baby on the way. i feel that i failed. she lied about where she was last weekend and i was so upset. i took the cellphone and computer away. then i find out she sneaked and bought a pre pay to talk to this boy.

i have just felt so awful. i feel like i have been on a roller coaster ride. i know i did the right thing but why am i sitting here crying over it? i just feel like i am so alone and why does bad things happen to good people? i try to keep faith that everything has a reason.

please pray for my family and for me to keep the faith and know everything will be okay:sad:

 

[Justine]

Father may your peace, wisdom and discernment be showered upon this wife. I pray that the husband will come to know your perfect will for him, and his marriage. Help him Jesus to find the courage to break free and do what is right by his wife and daugher. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Heidi]

heavenly father, i lift up this wife and mother to you. I pray that you will show her what she should be doing. I pray for the husband in the far off land. I pray you continue working with this husband, and show him the way home. Bring this family back together if it is your will. Bad things do happen to Good people. When this does. Something good always comes out of it, even when we can't see beyond the point were living in the now. I pray for this daughter, guide her in the right direction when it comes to relationships. Bless her as she graduates and enters this world as a young lady. In Jesus Name, amen

 

[Bernie]

Father, I come to you with this wife and Mother aswell. I pray that you will give her the Peace that only you can give her Lord.What you are Doing is right. My wife Left me 3 years 4months ago. I Believe that the Lord is Telling me to wait for his Timing and he will bring us Back together, because we need to have the Faith and Trust in our Lord. Father, I ask that you will bring this Husband of hers such a Burning Desire to be with his Wife that he can not think of anything else but to do the right thing. Let him hear your voice Father. Let him feel so uncomfortible with this Girl that he is with. I pray this in your Loving and Almighty name Jesus. AMEN