Just to let everyone know, that no matter how hard

[Johnsstarry sky]

Just to let everyone know, that no matter how hard I prayed, how hard I laid on the alter floor screaming out to God in tears, My Mom left this world holding my hand on January 12th at 9:39pm. I will never forget that moment of time, it will forever haunt me. It's taken me these weeks since then to forgive God for letting me see the process of the death of my Beautiful Mom. I blame the hospital for what happened to my mom but there's nothing I can do about it. I miss my Mom so bad that when I cry my chest hurts, she is my mother, my friend and I have never loved a lady as much as love her. For three years I took care of my Mom, I bathed her, I toileted her, I dressed her, I did her hair, we went out shopping together, we went out eating together, we watched TV together. Now my life is void, I cry all the time, as I just want to be with my mom. Also, losing my Mom will also put a strain on my marriage and home, when God took Mom, he took Mom's monthly check from us, when God took mom, he took away my paycheck in taking care of her. We have nothing left, no savings, no property, no retirement. We will have barely enough to pay for the rent and utilities at the first of February. It's not my Mom's fault, in fact Mom was always there for me, for us. We had Mom taken quickly to a Hospice center so that she could feel the licks of her two four-legged grandkids one more time, and to have them open up their Christmas gifts from her. I'm not sure if my Mom even knew it. Then I was left with my Mom alone, I crawled into bed with her and held her, I held her hands, I kissed her feet, I massaged her legs, I brushed her hair. And I wiped away the last of her Phlegm from her mouth when God came to take her home. My God I miss my Mother so much that I just wish I could take my heart from my chest and smash it so I could be with her. All this time, people always said I was going to be blessed for taking such great care of my Mom. I guess this is how I'm blessed, voidness, loneliness, financial emergency and a very very broken heart. I love you Mom and I'm looking so forward to coming home to you and Dad, one day soon. ###

 

[SonJesus1]

God sees more than we do

 

[mitchandkay]

Dear one, God did not "take" your dear Mother, we live in a fallen world, and the facts are that everyone is going to die of something unless we are caught up in the rapture. Your Mother would not want you to be angry at God and she would not want you to be hurting. I ask the Holy Spirit of God to comfort you as only He can. You are a precious person for taking such care of your Mom, as far as your finances, ask the Lord for wisdom concerning what He would have you to do, He will open doors for you to be able to take care of your family. Call upon the name of Jesus and He will be there to help you. You are in my prayers. Blessings!

 

[Stitcher]

I pray for comfort for you, and that your family heal from this loss. I also pray for a job for you that will provide. I have prayed for this. In Jesus' name, Amen.

 

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