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Heidi
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Heavenly father, please be with me. I feel depressed. I try to lift my spirits. I cant seem to get out of this rut. I do good for a few days. Then i'm back down. Forgive me father, i think its the holidays, and the split up of the family. Brian has been gone almost 2 wks. I still havent been Christmas shopping. I just cant get into it this year. I shouldnt have everybody around me suffer, because I am. Father, i know the true meaning of Christmas. Its the only thing keeping me going. I'm just not in any mood to buy Christmas gifts for anybody. I still live in the same house as brian through this divorce. I dont even know if i buy him a Christmas present. I dont know whats the right thing to do. I would have no clue what to get him. Hes leaving us. I'm having to purge my household stuff to move home with my parents. Yet my children want things for Christmas that will take up more room at my parents house. Lord, just be with me. I just dont know what to do. In Jesus Name, amen