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Well, I went to church today and enjoyed it. There were visiting church members and preacher today. They were from a neighboring state, and it was also a deaf ministry. The service was about how those of us who can hear can be spiritually deaf. The sermon was also about celebrating the differences among us, and how God loves all. The guest preacher did a great job on tying all these things together.
I spent last week getting my house in order. The one thing about depression is that you tend not to care about anything. I let my house get so cluttered and disorderly. Then, one day, it hit me. There are things in my life that I can’t control, but I can take control of my home. I can bring cleanliness and order into my home, so I cleaned… I scrubbed floors, cleaned my oven, and shampooed my carpet. I cleaned everything. After I was finished, I made a promise to myself that I would go to church the following Sunday no matter what… I didn’t understand why I was so scared. I’ve been to church many times in the past. I knew though that this was something I could also control. So, this morning, I woke up, and I almost talked myself out of it, but I had to tell Satan NO! I’m in control of this, not you! Thank you God for helping me find some control in my life.
Tomorrow, I plan to go back to the gym. I also want to quit smoking. The smoking is going to be a lot harder though, but I’m going to keep trying…
I’m barely making my sales. It’s a constant struggle and stress. I haven’t heard anything about the big mistake I made… I will know more about it next month when October’s sales are figured out. I also haven’t heard anything about losing my job. I don’t know if that’s good or bad. I guess I’ll find out next month also.
I talked to my “friend.” He is having such a hard time. As you know, his mother passed away almost a year ago. His mother had a lot of friends who still don’t know of her death. My friend is always running into someone who doesn’t know of her passing and has to re-live it all over again. It’s very hard on him. He’s in a lot of emotional pain on top of his physical pain due to his bad back. Also, the MRI results are back, but it will be about a week or so before he can make the trip to the doctor’s office. It’s a 4½ hour drive. It’s hard for him to find the time. He knows he needs to find the time though. It’s just hard when you’re self-employed.
Life is definitely stressful. I can’t control my work environment, can’t even find a better job right now. I may not be making enough money to take care of my needs, and I’m in a position where I have to be patient with the person I love, but I can strive to better myself and take control of the things that I can control. I realize that things seem worse when you don’t take care of yourself. And, when you don’t take pride and keep order in the things that you can control, it only adds more chaos to the things you can’t control. I’m a work in progress… God’s working on it.
I just wanted to give everyone an update, and thank everyone for your prayers. It’s working, slowly but surely, so please keep praying. Thanks again.
I spent last week getting my house in order. The one thing about depression is that you tend not to care about anything. I let my house get so cluttered and disorderly. Then, one day, it hit me. There are things in my life that I can’t control, but I can take control of my home. I can bring cleanliness and order into my home, so I cleaned… I scrubbed floors, cleaned my oven, and shampooed my carpet. I cleaned everything. After I was finished, I made a promise to myself that I would go to church the following Sunday no matter what… I didn’t understand why I was so scared. I’ve been to church many times in the past. I knew though that this was something I could also control. So, this morning, I woke up, and I almost talked myself out of it, but I had to tell Satan NO! I’m in control of this, not you! Thank you God for helping me find some control in my life.
Tomorrow, I plan to go back to the gym. I also want to quit smoking. The smoking is going to be a lot harder though, but I’m going to keep trying…
I’m barely making my sales. It’s a constant struggle and stress. I haven’t heard anything about the big mistake I made… I will know more about it next month when October’s sales are figured out. I also haven’t heard anything about losing my job. I don’t know if that’s good or bad. I guess I’ll find out next month also.
I talked to my “friend.” He is having such a hard time. As you know, his mother passed away almost a year ago. His mother had a lot of friends who still don’t know of her death. My friend is always running into someone who doesn’t know of her passing and has to re-live it all over again. It’s very hard on him. He’s in a lot of emotional pain on top of his physical pain due to his bad back. Also, the MRI results are back, but it will be about a week or so before he can make the trip to the doctor’s office. It’s a 4½ hour drive. It’s hard for him to find the time. He knows he needs to find the time though. It’s just hard when you’re self-employed.
Life is definitely stressful. I can’t control my work environment, can’t even find a better job right now. I may not be making enough money to take care of my needs, and I’m in a position where I have to be patient with the person I love, but I can strive to better myself and take control of the things that I can control. I realize that things seem worse when you don’t take care of yourself. And, when you don’t take pride and keep order in the things that you can control, it only adds more chaos to the things you can’t control. I’m a work in progress… God’s working on it.
I just wanted to give everyone an update, and thank everyone for your prayers. It’s working, slowly but surely, so please keep praying. Thanks again.
