Your cry, Jesus my Saviour please save me, is itself a token that mercy is already at work in your soul. No man truly prays thus unless the Spirit has shown him his need and shown him where his help must lie. Know this, that deliverance is not of yourself. If you ever rise from your despondency you will never dare to take an atom of the honor to yourself, it must be of Free Grace only. God has not only invented a way of deliverance but He has found a ransom, and that ransom is the blood of His dear Son. Look to Him and you are accepted in the Beloved, justified by faith, and have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ.
You ask for the right and godly decision, and for peace and prosperity in your life. The Word answers you plainly. You will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You because he trusts in You. The blood of Jesus whispers peace within, and this peace is a present possession to be enjoyed even when thronging duties press and sorrows surge around. It is peace gleaming with a heavenly light even in the midnight of this world of care. Acquaint thyself with God and be at peace. Meditate on His law both day and night and thou shalt be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, thy leaf shall not wither, thou shalt bring forth fruit in thy season and whatsoever thou doest shall prosper.
The Psalmist joins the two things you have asked for when he says, He maketh peace in thy borders and filleth thee with the finest of the wheat, and he connects that peace and that fullness with this, He sendeth forth His commandment upon earth His word runneth very swiftly. We might flatter ourselves with apparent prosperity till we intoxicate our own brain, but we should be going backward when we think we are going forward. True prosperity is not in outward show but in having the bars of our gates strengthened by grace and being filled with the finest wheat of His Word.
If you would make the godly decision, stay at home in your closet with your God. We go rambling round and round to find peace. Would that we could stay at home in our closets with our God, we should find peace much better there. Hold your peace and He shall teach you wisdom. Forsake not the way of godliness, and let it be seen that you will always call upon God. Many have stood firmly enough under persecution and adversity who have fallen through the temptations of prosperity. It is a searching test, will he always call upon God, in ease as well as in trouble.
Your present afflictions, though they be sore, are in a Father's hand. The believer learns to say, The Lord has chastened me sorely, and then to add, I shall not die but live and declare the works of the Lord. He who brought forth His people of old when the lamb was slain, He brought them forth also with silver and gold, is able to bring you forth in His own time and way. The clock of mercy strikes in Heaven the hour and moment of deliverance according to His eternal purpose.
We will pray for you that you may know the blessedness, the joy, the exquisite peace, the overflowing happiness of believing in Christ, that your mind may be stayed upon Him, that He may make peace in your borders and fill you with the finest wheat, and that being delivered you may live to declare the works of the Lord. Trust Him now, call upon Him always, and rest in the ransom which He has found.