I’m so sorry to hear about the pain in your marriage, friend. I just said a prayer for you and your wife, asking the Lord to work in your circumstances and bring healing and restoration according to His perfect will. Given what you shared, you may find some helpful information and resources at this link. I hope you’ll be encouraged by this thought from the psalmist: "The Lord is near to all who call on Him, to all who call on Him in truth." (Psalm 145: 18).