We lift you up before the Lord, our brother, and we are deeply moved by the weight of your struggles—your marriage, your work, your health, and the burden of guilt and fear you carry. It is clear your heart is crying out for change, and we praise God that you have turned to Jesus Christ in this time of need, for He alone is your refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1). You have called upon the name of the Lord, and we declare that He hears you, for it is written, *"All things, whatever you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive"* (Matthew 21:22, WEB). Let us stand together in prayer and in the truth of God’s Word to address each of these burdens, seeking His will and His healing power in every area of your life.
First, we address your marriage, for it is a covenant before God, and He desires for it to reflect His love and holiness. The hatred and bitterness you describe are not from the Lord, but from the enemy who seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10). Yet God’s Word commands us, *"Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the assembly, and gave himself up for it"* (Ephesians 5:25, WEB). This love is not a feeling, but a choice—a daily surrender to the Holy Spirit to act in kindness, patience, and selflessness, even when it is difficult. We urge you to examine your heart: have you cherished your wife as Christ cherishes the church? Have you led her in prayer, in forgiveness, and in humility? Likewise, have you encouraged her to do the same? Marriage is a partnership under God, and both must seek Him diligently. If there has been sin—harsh words, neglect, or unforgiveness—repent now, for *"if we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness"* (1 John 1:9, WEB). Ask your wife for forgiveness, and commit to praying together, for *"a threefold cord is not quickly broken"* (Ecclesiastes 4:12, WEB). If she is willing, seek biblical counseling to rebuild trust and communication. Remember, God specializes in redemption, and He can restore what seems broken beyond repair.
As for your job, we understand the fear of losing your livelihood, but we must also address the integrity of your actions. You admitted to making the pipe supports without permission, and while your intention may have been to meet a deadline, this was not honest or wise. Proverbs 11:1 (WEB) warns, *"A false balance is an abomination to Yahweh, but accurate weights are his delight."* We do not condemn you, but we urge you to take responsibility for your mistake. Go to your bosses with humility and honesty, acknowledging what you did and asking for their understanding. Trust that God can soften their hearts, but do not expect Him to bless dishonesty. Pray that He would give you favor, but also pray for wisdom to prevent such mistakes in the future. *"Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord, and not for men"* (Colossians 3:23, WEB). If consequences come, trust that God will provide—He is your ultimate provider, not your job. *"Seek first God’s Kingdom and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well"* (Matthew 6:33, WEB).
Your physical pain is also a heavy burden, and we lift it up to the Lord, who is the Great Physician. The cyst in your spine and the agony in your back and legs are not beyond His healing power. We pray for complete restoration, that every cell would align with God’s perfect design, and that you would walk in freedom from pain. *"He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds"* (Psalm 147:3, WEB). Yet even if healing tarries, we encourage you to trust in His sovereignty. Your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19), so we also urge you to care for it wisely—rest when needed, seek medical advice if necessary, and avoid anything that might worsen your condition. Do not let pain drive you to despair, but let it drive you to depend more deeply on Christ, who bore our infirmities (Isaiah 53:4).
Finally, we address the guilt and self-loathing you expressed. These feelings are not from God, for *"there is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus"* (Romans 8:1, WEB). If you have repented of your sins, He has forgiven you—completely. You must receive that forgiveness and let go of the shame. You said, *"I don’t like myself anymore,"* but your identity is not in your failures; it is in Christ. *"If anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old things have passed away. Behold, all things have become new"* (2 Corinthians 5:17, WEB). Start speaking life over yourself: *"I am fearfully and wonderfully made" (Psalm 139:14).* *"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" (Philippians 4:13).* Reject the lies of the enemy that tell you you’re unworthy or beyond hope. You are a child of God, and He is at work in you (Philippians 2:13).
Now, let us pray together:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our brother who is weary and burdened. Lord, You see his heart—his desire to change, his fear, his pain, and his regret. We ask for Your mercy and grace to flood every area of his life. Begin in his marriage, Lord. Soften his heart and the heart of his wife. Remove the hatred, bitterness, and resentment that have taken root, and replace them with Your love, which is patient and kind (1 Corinthians 13:4). Give them both the humility to repent, the strength to forgive, and the wisdom to rebuild their marriage on the foundation of Your Word. Let them seek You together, praying as one flesh, covered by Your peace.
Lord, we pray for his work. Forgive him where he has acted hastily or without integrity, and grant him the courage to make things right with his employers. Give his bosses hearts of understanding and favor, but more than that, give our brother a spirit of excellence and diligence in all he does. Let him work as unto You, not for the approval of men. Provide for his family, Lord, and open doors no man can shut if this job is not Your will. You are Jehovah Jireh, our Provider, and we trust You to meet every need.
Father, we ask for healing in his body. Touch his spine, his back, his legs—let every pain cease in the name of Jesus. We rebuke any infirmity, any cyst, any disease, and command it to leave his body, for by Your stripes, he is healed (Isaiah 53:5). Restore his strength, Lord, so he can walk without pain and serve You with a sound mind and body.
Most of all, Father, lift the weight of guilt and shame from him. Remind him that he is forgiven, loved, and redeemed. Break the chains of self-condemnation and fill him with Your peace. Let him see himself as You see him—a beloved son, created for Your glory. Renew his mind with Your truth, and let him walk in the confidence of Your love.
We declare victory in every area of his life, not by his strength, but by the power of the Holy Spirit. May he rise up from this place of brokenness into a testimony of Your faithfulness. We ask all this in the precious name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, who lives and reigns with You and the Holy Spirit, one God, forever and ever. Amen.
Brother, we leave you with this encouragement: *"Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness"* (Isaiah 41:10, WEB). Keep seeking Jesus. Keep praying. Keep repenting and trusting. He is not done with you—He is making all things new. Stand firm, and watch what the Lord will do.
