We hear the deep weariness and sorrow in your heart, and we are moved with compassion for you. The longing you express for comfort and rest is something our Heavenly Father understands, for He invites all who are weary and burdened to come to Him (Matthew 11:28). Yet we must address what we see in your request with both truth and love, for God’s Word does not leave us in our brokenness but calls us to something higher, something eternal.
First, we rejoice that you cried out to Jesus Christ, for there is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved (Acts 4:12). It is only through Him that we can approach the throne of grace with confidence (Hebrews 4:16). However, we must gently but firmly point out that the comforts you are seeking—alcohol, vaping, and escaping into sleep—are temporary fixes that cannot satisfy the deep needs of your soul. The Bible warns us not to seek refuge in things that numb or distract us from the true source of peace. Ephesians 5:18 tells us, *"Don’t be drunken with wine, in which is dissipation, but be filled with the Spirit."* Similarly, our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19-20), and we are called to honor God with them, not fill them with substances that harm or control us.
Your self-pity and fear are real, but they are not the end of your story. The enemy wants you to believe that you are stuck in this cycle of sadness and exhaustion, but God’s Word declares that you are *more than a conqueror* through Christ (Romans 8:37). The pity you feel for yourself can be replaced with the *compassion of Christ*, who Himself was *"a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering"* (Isaiah 53:3). He does not despise your weakness—He invites you to cast all your anxieties on Him because He cares for you (1 Peter 5:7).
You mentioned wanting to dream of better things. Oh, beloved, God has *far better* in store for you than even your dreams can imagine! Jeremiah 29:11 says, *"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares Yahweh, “plans for peace and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope."* But this hope is not found in escaping reality—it is found in surrendering to the One who can transform your reality. Instead of turning to beer or vaping to relax, what if you turned to the Prince of Peace Himself? Jesus said, *"Peace I leave with you. My peace I give to you; not as the world gives, I give to you. Don’t let your heart be troubled, neither let it be fearful"* (John 14:27).
We also hear the fear in your words—fear of yourself, fear of the future. But perfect love casts out fear (1 John 4:18). You do not have to be afraid of your own heart when it is surrendered to Christ. He is making you new, day by day (2 Corinthians 5:17). The sadness you feel is an opportunity to draw near to the God who is close to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18). He is not asking you to "pull yourself together" in your own strength—He is asking you to *fall apart in His arms* so He can put you back together in His way.
Now, let us pray for you with the hope and authority we have in Christ:
Heavenly Father, we lift up this precious soul to You, knowing that You see every tear, every ache, and every fear. Lord, they are crying out to You, and we thank You that You hear them. You are the God who *sees* (Genesis 16:13), and You are moving even now on their behalf.
We rebuke the spirit of heaviness and despair that has tried to weigh them down (Isaiah 61:3). No weapon formed against them shall prosper, and every tongue that rises against them in judgment—even their own—You shall condemn (Isaiah 54:17). Father, break the chains of self-pity and replace them with the garment of praise. Let them see themselves as You see them: *redeemed, loved, and chosen* (Ephesians 1:4-5).
Lord, we ask that You would remove the desire for temporary comforts that harm the body and dull the spirit. Fill them instead with the Holy Spirit, who brings true comfort, conviction, and joy. Let them taste and see that *You* are good (Psalm 34:8), not the fleeting pleasures of this world.
We pray for supernatural rest—rest for their body, mind, and spirit. When they lie down, let their sleep be sweet and their dreams be filled with Your promises. Guard their heart and mind in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:7), and let them wake with a renewed sense of Your presence and purpose.
Father, we ask that You would surround them with Your peace, which surpasses all understanding. Where there is fear, let there be faith. Where there is sadness, let there be hope. Where there is tiredness, let there be strength in You. Remind them that they are not alone—You are with them, and so are we, their brothers and sisters in Christ, standing in the gap for them.
We declare that their story is not ending in weariness but is being rewritten by Your hand. You are making all things new (Revelation 21:5), and we trust You to do a mighty work in their life. Give them the courage to face each day with You as their strength. Let them say with the psalmist, *"The Lord is my light and my salvation. Whom shall I fear?"* (Psalm 27:1).
In the mighty and matchless name of Jesus Christ, our Savior and Redeemer, we pray. Amen.
Beloved, we urge you to turn away from the things that offer false comfort and turn *toward* Jesus. Spend time in His Word. Talk to Him throughout your day. Find a community of believers who can walk with you and remind you of His truth when you feel weak. You are not meant to carry this burden alone—Jesus is waiting to carry it for you.
If you have not fully surrendered your life to Christ, we implore you to do so today. Confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, and you *will* be saved (Romans 10:9). There is no pit so deep that His love is not deeper still. Run to Him. He is waiting.
. I want to go home and cry and to go to bed early today. I want to sleep and dream of better things. I'm so tired and sad and scared about myself. Please help me
