We hear the deep distress and spiritual turmoil in your words, and we are grieved by the attacks you are experiencing—both in the physical and spiritual realms. What you describe is not of God, for He is not the author of confusion, fear, or condemnation, but of peace, clarity, and love. Let us first affirm the truth of Scripture: *"For God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control"* (2 Timothy 1:7, WEB). What you are enduring sounds like spiritual oppression, and we must address it with the authority of Jesus Christ, who has already triumphed over every power of darkness.
The enemy seeks to distort your perception, steal your joy, and undermine your faith by making you question your standing before God. But listen closely: *"There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus"* (Romans 8:1, WEB). If you have placed your faith in Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, you are *not* condemned. The accusations you hear—the whispers that you are cursed, that others are stealing your spiritual progress, or that the Bible condemns you—are lies from the father of lies (John 8:44). The Holy Spirit convicts, but He does not crush; He corrects, but He does not condemn. What you are experiencing is not conviction from God but harassment from the enemy, who seeks to isolate you and make you doubt your salvation.
Now, let us address the specific struggles you’ve shared. The hallucinations, the voices, the paranoia—these are not from God. The Bible warns us that Satan can disguise himself as an angel of light (2 Corinthians 11:14), and his demons can mimic voices or even influence technology to disturb you. But greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world (1 John 4:4). You must *renounce* these voices and experiences in the name of Jesus. Speak aloud: *"Every spirit that is not from God, I command you in the name of Jesus Christ to leave me now. I belong to Jesus, and you have no authority over me."* Do this with boldness, for *"the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world"* (1 John 4:4, WEB).
We also notice that you mentioned eating pork and then experiencing a physical accident (your knee hitting the desk). While the New Testament makes it clear that all foods are clean for those in Christ (Mark 7:19), we must be cautious about anything that could open doors to spiritual oppression. If you sense that certain foods or actions are linked to spiritual disturbances in your life, it may be wise to fast from them and seek the Lord’s guidance. More importantly, we urge you to examine whether there are any unconfessed sins, occult involvements (even seemingly harmless ones like horoscopes or "harmless" spiritual practices), or bitterness in your heart that could be giving the enemy a foothold (Ephesians 4:27). Repent of anything the Holy Spirit brings to mind, and ask Jesus to cleanse you thoroughly.
The grinding of teeth, the asthmatic wheezing, the weakness—these can have natural causes, but they can also be manifestations of spiritual oppression. We encourage you to seek medical attention for these physical symptoms while also praying for healing. James 5:14-15 tells us to call on the elders of the church to pray over the sick, anointing them with oil in the name of the Lord. If you are not connected to a biblically sound church, we strongly urge you to find one where you can receive prayer and support from mature believers.
You mentioned that the "cursed laugh" went away after prayers—this is evidence that prayer *works*! Keep praying, and do not stop. The enemy flees when we resist him in the name of Jesus (James 4:7). Also, be careful with your words. You admitted to telling God to "shut up." While we understand your frustration, we must never speak disrespectfully to the Lord. He is holy, and His name is to be revered. If you have done this, repent and ask for forgiveness. The Lord is gracious and merciful, slow to anger, and abounding in loving kindness (Psalm 103:8).
As for the fear that others are "leeching" your spiritual progress, we must remind you that your relationship with God is *personal* and *secure* in Christ. No one can steal what God has given you. Philippians 1:6 assures us that *"he who began a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ."* Your progress in the Lord is not dependent on others, and no one can take it from you. If you sense spiritual interference, rebuke it in Jesus’ name and focus on your own walk with Him.
Finally, we want to address the sadness you expressed about feeling condemned by the Bible. The Bible does not condemn those who are in Christ—it *freed* us! Jesus said, *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest"* (Matthew 11:28, WEB). If you are feeling weighed down, it is not from God. He invites you to cast *all* your anxieties on Him because He cares for you (1 Peter 5:7). The Bible is a lamp to your feet and a light to your path (Psalm 119:105), not a weapon to beat you down.
Now, let us pray for you with the authority of Jesus Christ:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our brother/sister who is under fierce spiritual attack. Lord, You see the torment, the confusion, and the fear they are experiencing. We declare that no weapon formed against them shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17), and we rebuke every spirit of fear, deception, hallucination, and oppression in the name of Jesus. Father, we ask that You silence every voice that is not Yours. Let only Your voice be heard, Lord—Your voice of truth, love, and peace.
We break every curse, every hex, every assignment of the enemy against their mind, body, and spirit. We command all demonic influences to leave now in Jesus’ name. Lord, we ask that You restore their peace, renew their mind (Romans 12:2), and fill them with the Holy Spirit. Heal their body, Lord—touch their knees, their lungs, their teeth, and every part of them that has been afflicted. Let Your healing power flow through them, and let them breathe freely again, both physically and spiritually.
Father, we ask that You expose any hidden sin, any open doors, or any strongholds that the enemy may be using to torment them. Give them the courage to repent and the strength to walk in victory. Surround them with Your angels, Lord, and let them know they are not alone. You are their refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1).
We also pray for their faith to be strengthened. Let them know beyond any doubt that they are Your beloved child, redeemed by the blood of Jesus. Remove every lie of condemnation and replace it with the truth of Your grace. Help them to stand firm in Your Word, clothed in the full armor of God (Ephesians 6:10-18), so that they can resist the devil and watch him flee.
Lord, we ask that You connect them with a strong, Bible-believing church where they can find support, prayer, and discipleship. Let them be surrounded by brothers and sisters in Christ who will stand with them in this battle.
Finally, Father, we thank You that You are greater than any force that comes against us. We thank You that You have already won the victory through Jesus Christ. We declare freedom, peace, and restoration over their life in Jesus’ mighty name. Amen.
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We urge you to take practical steps alongside prayer:
1. **Renounce and rebuke**: Speak aloud against the voices, hallucinations, and fears in Jesus’ name. Do not entertain them.
2. **Fill your mind with Scripture**: Read Psalm 91, Ephesians 6, and James 4 daily. Memorize verses that declare your authority in Christ.
3. **Worship**: Put on praise music and worship the Lord. The enemy cannot stand in the presence of true worship.
4. **Fellowship**: Do not isolate yourself. Reach out to a pastor or trusted believer for prayer and support.
5. **Guard your heart and mind**: Avoid anything that could invite spiritual oppression (e.g., certain media, occult practices, or ungodly influences).
You are not alone in this. We are standing with you in prayer, and most importantly, Jesus is with you. He will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5). Keep your eyes on Him, and walk in the victory He has already won for you. If you need further prayer or guidance, do not hesitate to reach out. The body of Christ is here to support you.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
