We hear the deep distress and turmoil in your heart, and we are grateful that you have turned to Jesus Christ in your time of need, for there is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved. The Scriptures declare, *"There is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus"* (1 Timothy 2:5, WEB), and it is only through faith in Him that we find redemption, forgiveness, and freedom from the bondage of sin, fear, and curses. You have called upon the right name—the name above all names—and we join you in seeking His mercy, deliverance, and transformation in every area of your life.
First, let us address the foundation of your plea: **salvation and freedom in Christ**. You have expressed fear of curses, past sins, and spiritual oppression, but the Word of God assures us that *"Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law, having become a curse for us. For it is written, ‘Cursed is everyone who hangs on a tree,’"* (Galatians 3:13, WEB). If you have placed your faith in Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, you are no longer under any curse, for *"there is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus"* (Romans 8:1, WEB). The enemy may accuse you and bring up past sins, but the blood of Jesus has already atoned for them. *"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness"* (1 John 1:9, WEB). You must renounce any agreement with fear, guilt, or spiritual oppression and stand firm in the authority of Christ, who has *"disarmed the principalities and the powers... triumphing over them in it"* (Colossians 2:15, WEB).
You mentioned several specific incidents that weigh heavily on your conscience. Let us address them with the truth of Scripture:
1. **Fear of curses from past interactions**: You expressed concern about laughing at someone’s voice and the incident with the fist bump, as well as the altercation that followed. The Bible teaches that *"God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control"* (2 Timothy 1:7, WEB). If you have harbored guilt or fear from these moments, repent for any wrongdoing—such as partiality, pride, or unkindness—and release these burdens to the Lord. *"Cast all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you"* (1 Peter 5:7, WEB). Do not give the enemy a foothold by dwelling on these things. Instead, ask the Lord to heal any broken relationships and to fill you with His peace.
2. **Pornography and the cursed laptop**: You acknowledged watching pornography, which is a sin against God and against your own body (1 Corinthians 6:18). Pornography is a snare that defiles the mind and spirit, but there is hope in Christ. *"Flee sexual immorality! ‘Every sin that a man does is outside the body,’ but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. Or don’t you know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. Therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God’s"* (1 Corinthians 6:18-20, WEB). Repent of this sin, and ask the Lord to cleanse your mind and heart. Destroy any remnants of this sin in your life, and guard your eyes and thoughts with the Word of God. *"Finally, brothers, whatever things are true, whatever things are honorable, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report; if there is any virtue, and if there is any praise, think about these things"* (Philippians 4:8, WEB).
3. **Struggle with parents and anger**: You described feelings of aggression and resentment toward your parents, even expressing extreme thoughts. This is not the heart of Christ. *"Honor your father and mother," which is the first commandment with a promise: "that it may be well with you, and you may live long on the earth"* (Ephesians 6:2-3, WEB). While it is clear you are hurting, we must rebuking any spirit of hatred, bitterness, or violence in your heart. *"Don’t let any corrupt speech proceed out of your mouth, but only what is good for building others up as the need may be, that it may give grace to those who hear. Don’t grieve the Holy Spirit of God... Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, outcry, and slander be put away from you, with all malice. And be kind to one another, tender hearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you"* (Ephesians 4:29-32, WEB). Ask the Lord to soften your heart toward your parents and to help you forgive them for their shortcomings. Pray for their salvation and transformation, that they may walk in the wisdom and love of Christ.
4. **Dream and spiritual confusion**: Dreams can sometimes be a mix of our own thoughts, spiritual warfare, or even messages from the Lord. However, we must test everything against Scripture. If you are experiencing spiritual confusion or fear, cling to the truth of God’s Word. *"Beloved, don’t believe every spirit, but test the spirits, whether they are of God; because many false prophets have gone out into the world"* (1 John 4:1, WEB). Ask the Holy Spirit to fill you with discernment and to guard your mind from deception. If you sense spiritual oppression, put on the full armor of God: *"Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For our wrestling is not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world’s rulers of the darkness of this age, and against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places"* (Ephesians 6:11-12, WEB).
5. **Drugs and generational influences**: You mentioned concern about drug use and its influence on your family. Drug addiction is a tool of the enemy to destroy lives, but God is a God of deliverance. *"No temptation has taken you except what is common to man. God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted above what you are able, but will with the temptation also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it"* (1 Corinthians 10:13, WEB). Pray for your father’s deliverance from any lingering influences of addiction, and ask the Lord to break generational curses in your family. *"The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly"* (John 10:10, WEB).
6. **Feelings of jealousy and comparison**: You mentioned a jealous spirit and feelings of being undervalued. The Bible warns against jealousy and comparison, for they lead to bitterness and strife. *"For where jealousy and selfish ambition are, there is confusion and every evil deed"* (James 3:16, WEB). Instead, focus on the truth that your worth is found in Christ alone. *"But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for God’s own possession, that you may proclaim the excellence of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light"* (1 Peter 2:9, WEB). Let go of the need for validation from others and rest in the love of your Heavenly Father.
Now, let us pray together for your deliverance, healing, and restoration:
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Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our brother who is crying out for Your mercy and deliverance. Lord, we thank You that You are a God who hears the prayers of the repentant and brokenhearted. You are the God who breaks every chain, who sets the captives free, and who redeems us from the curse of sin and death.
Father, we ask that You forgive our brother for every sin he has confessed—whether it be the sin of partiality, the defilement of pornography, anger, bitterness, or any other transgression. Wash him clean with the blood of Jesus and renew his mind by the power of Your Holy Spirit. Lord, we rebuke every spirit of fear, guilt, and oppression that has sought to torment him. We declare that *"whom the Son sets free is free indeed"* (John 8:36, WEB), and we ask that You break every curse, every stronghold, and every lie of the enemy over his life.
Lord Jesus, we pray for his parents. Softening their hearts and draw them to Yourself. Break any generational curses of addiction, anger, or strife in their family. Father, we ask that You restore peace, love, and unity in their home. Help our brother to honor his parents as You command, and give him the grace to forgive them as You have forgiven him.
We pray for protection over his mind and spirit. Guard him from the snares of pornography, drug influences, and spiritual deception. Fill him with Your Holy Spirit, that he may walk in purity, wisdom, and discernment. Lord, we ask that You remove any ungodly soul ties or influences from his past and surround him with Your angels for protection.
Father, we pray for his future—his calling, his purpose, and his relationships. If it is Your will, provide godly friendships and mentors who will encourage him in his faith. If he is to pursue marriage one day, we pray that You prepare a godly spouse for him, a woman who loves You and will walk beside him in righteousness.
We thank You, Lord, for Your peace that surpasses all understanding. We thank You for the gift of salvation, for the promise of deliverance, and for the hope we have in Christ Jesus. May our brother experience Your presence in a powerful way, and may he walk in the freedom and victory that You have purchased for him on the cross.
In the mighty name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.
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Finally, we encourage you to immerse yourself in the Word of God daily. *"Your word is a lamp to my feet, and a light for my path"* (Psalm 119:105, WEB). Spend time in prayer, worship, and fellowship with other believers who can support and encourage you. If you have not already, we strongly urge you to find a Bible-believing church where you can grow in your faith and receive godly counsel.
Remember, *"The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit"* (Psalm 34:18, WEB). You are not alone in this battle. The Lord is with you, and He will never leave you nor forsake you. Keep your eyes fixed on Jesus, the author and finisher of your faith, and trust Him to lead you into all truth and victory. *"For everyone who has been born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world: your faith. Who is he who overcomes the world, but he who believes that Jesus is the Son of God?"* (1 John 5:4-5, WEB). Stand firm in that faith, and walk in the freedom Christ has won for you.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
