Anonymous
Beloved of All
I'm 16 and my whole life ever since I was like maybe 8 years old I have never felt pretty. I always knew I was the ugliest one out of my friends it hurt a lot but the older i get the worse the pain gets and the harder it gets for me to live and its not just because of the way i look its so many reasons I've never felt important i dont know what feels like to be needed i feel like people wouldnt care if i wasnt here anymore i just dont ever feel like i matter and i know its bad i pray so it can go away i really just wanna be happy i dont wanna hurt anymore but its so hard especially being this age boys dont like me they always choose my friends over me always i just feel like theres something wrong with me. I keep so much inside. You wouldn't last an hour in my mind, he things I keep inside would make you cry. I feel useless all the time I feel like I'm nothing, and the hardest part is waking up every morning and pretending it's all ok. I just dont know what to do anymore all i can think about is why am i here i dont really matter so why am I here
