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Sean Tan Wei Chien
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Its my ###th birthday today.
### months ago, I have just lost an eye to an amoeba infection, and due to it - I have lost my job. I am now living on my parents. I achieve nothing in my life. Socially awkward, badly educated. I felt my life is heading towards no way. I am still alone, and am not over my ex a decade ago. The other day, I read up John Lennon's killer Wikipedia, and I am finding myself developing tendencies of his traits. I am worried about the future, I see the bums on the street - and I figure one day I will join them.
I'm depressed. I haven't been to church for months now. I am so ashamed of myself and I am isolating from my friends. Where, where could I go? I'm spiraling downwards. Yeah, you said God loves me, I accept that - but I really felt I am living my life in a waste - and I'm too smart to take the route of killing myself. I'm like what you would call it - lukewarm. Neither hot or cold towards life. I feel pathetic.
My prayer items:-
1) I wish God can speak to me - what purpose do I have for him now? blind in one eye and now jobless
2) Help me to overcome my demons - the woman I had love a decade ago. Every time I sneak looking her -banned site- profile, she's living her purpose as a teacher and I'm heading towards the path of a bum
3) Please, pray for me. Give me hope, give me strength to change my mind. I'm so negative - I see no hope in everything.
Thank you.
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### months ago, I have just lost an eye to an amoeba infection, and due to it - I have lost my job. I am now living on my parents. I achieve nothing in my life. Socially awkward, badly educated. I felt my life is heading towards no way. I am still alone, and am not over my ex a decade ago. The other day, I read up John Lennon's killer Wikipedia, and I am finding myself developing tendencies of his traits. I am worried about the future, I see the bums on the street - and I figure one day I will join them.
I'm depressed. I haven't been to church for months now. I am so ashamed of myself and I am isolating from my friends. Where, where could I go? I'm spiraling downwards. Yeah, you said God loves me, I accept that - but I really felt I am living my life in a waste - and I'm too smart to take the route of killing myself. I'm like what you would call it - lukewarm. Neither hot or cold towards life. I feel pathetic.
My prayer items:-
1) I wish God can speak to me - what purpose do I have for him now? blind in one eye and now jobless
2) Help me to overcome my demons - the woman I had love a decade ago. Every time I sneak looking her -banned site- profile, she's living her purpose as a teacher and I'm heading towards the path of a bum
3) Please, pray for me. Give me hope, give me strength to change my mind. I'm so negative - I see no hope in everything.
Thank you.
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