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Amanda M
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I no I should not lean on anyone for happiness, but I now realized I did. The person now has ignored me due to me being so paranoid. I have been hurt starting at the age ###. No one understands what I am going through. I have been hurt all my life, each year is something new, something bigger. Some may be the same types of problem but they are different in the way they attack me. I have failed to let people see my strength in Christ. I have been seriously hurt Sept ### and on top of that my support (friend) shoulder is not there. I don't think he understands what I am going through. I would like him to understand. I would like to sit and tell him everything. I don't have a place to stay and Christian friend said she dreamt that I lost everything. I cancelled what she said but it lingers in my mind. The devil hates me with a passion and I now notice it. I told my friend who is now ignoring me that I will start a Bible study between me and him so that our friendship could have God in it and he agreed...the devil sent a tornado to mash up the friendship each weekend. Now I have gotten so paranoid over the situation by emailing, texting, etc., to him that he feels I have issues and I am acting to care about him. My issues: I need my mind renewed, I need a home, I need finance, I need my friend back and everything turn around for the good, I need my joy back and I need the devil out of my life. I can feel my brains on fire. I can feel my mind going haywire, I feel empty, I can't eat and I need major help. I am alone and no one is around. I will pray through my weakness but please pray for me also. I need it.
