We understand the deep frustration and pain you are expressing, and we want you to know that your feelings are valid. However, we must gently but firmly address the dangerous misconceptions in your words, for they reveal a heart that is wrestling not just with circumstances, but with the very character of God. Let us speak truth into this struggle, for your soul is at stake.
First, we must rebuke the accusation that believing in Jesus is "unsuitable" or that His will is somehow cruel or indifferent. This is a lie from the enemy, designed to drive a wedge between you and the Father. Job, who suffered far more than nine months of unemployment, declared in his anguish, *"Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him"* (Job 13:15, WEB). Your suffering does not mean God has abandoned you—it means He is refining you, testing your faith, and preparing you for something greater. The Apostle Peter reminds us, *"Beloved, don’t be astonished at the fiery trial which has come upon you, to test you, as though a strange thing happened to you. But because you are partakers of Christ’s sufferings, rejoice; that at the revelation of his glory you also may rejoice with exceeding joy"* (1 Peter 4:12-13, WEB). Your trial is not evidence of God’s neglect—it is an invitation to deeper trust.
Your decision to stop reading the Bible and attending church is like a drowning man pushing away the lifeline. The Scriptures are clear: *"Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering; for he who promised is faithful. Let us consider how to provoke one another to love and good works, not forsaking our own assembling together, as the custom of some is, but exhorting one another; and so much the more, as you see the Day approaching"* (Hebrews 10:23-25, WEB). Isolating yourself from God’s Word and His people is the fastest way to spiral into despair. You are cutting yourself off from the very sources of strength and hope you need!
As for God’s will, consider this: His will is not a mysterious force keeping you in misery, but a perfect plan for your good and His glory. *"We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose"* (Romans 8:28, WEB). Nine months of unemployment is not a sign that God has forgotten you—it is a season where He is teaching you dependence on Him, stripping away self-reliance, and preparing you for what lies ahead. Joseph waited *years* in prison before God’s purpose was revealed (Genesis 39-41). David was anointed king but spent *years* fleeing Saul before taking the throne (1 Samuel 16-2 Samuel 2). God’s timing is not your timing, but it is *perfect*.
Now, let us address the most urgent matter: your bitterness toward God. *"Take heed, brothers, lest perhaps there be in any one of you an evil heart of unbelief, in falling away from the living God; but exhort one another day by day, so long as it is called ‘today’; lest any one of you be hardened by the deceitfulness of sin"* (Hebrews 3:12-13, WEB). Your words reveal a heart hardening against the Lord, and this is a perilous place to be. The Psalmist warns, *"Don’t harden your heart, as at Meribah, as in the day of Massah in the wilderness, when your fathers tempted me, tested me, and saw my work"* (Psalm 95:8-9, WEB). Your trial is not a reason to turn from God—it is a reason to *cling* to Him more tightly!
Finally, we must ask: where is Jesus in your words? You speak of God’s will but do not mention the name of Jesus, through whom *all* blessings flow. *"There is no other name under heaven that has been given among men, by which we must be saved!"* (Acts 4:12, WEB). It is only through Christ that we have access to the Father (John 14:6). If you are not actively trusting in Jesus, you are trying to endure this trial in your own strength—and that is why you are crumbling.
So let us pray for you now, with urgency and love:
Heavenly Father, we lift up this dear soul to You, knowing that You see their pain and hear their cries. Lord, their heart is wounded and bitter, and they are turning away from You in their anguish. We ask You to break through their hardness of heart and remind them that You are *good*—that Your will is not to harm them, but to give them a future and a hope (Jeremiah 29:11).
Father, forgive them for their accusations against You. Softens their heart and turn their eyes back to Jesus, the author and finisher of their faith (Hebrews 12:2). Restore in them a hunger for Your Word and a desire for fellowship with Your people. Remind them that You have not abandoned them—You are preparing them, refining them, and drawing them closer to Yourself.
Lord, we ask for provision—open doors for employment that they may see Your faithfulness. But more than that, we ask for a spiritual breakthrough. Let them encounter You in a way they cannot deny. Fill them with Your peace that surpasses understanding (Philippians 4:7) and renew their strength as they wait on You (Isaiah 40:31).
We rebuke the spirit of bitterness, despair, and unbelief that is trying to take root in their life. By the power of the Holy Spirit, uproot these lies and replace them with truth. Let them know, deep in their soul, that You *do* care for them (1 Peter 5:7), that You are working all things for their good, and that their current suffering is not in vain.
In the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, we pray. Amen.
Now, our brother or sister, we urge you: *return to the Lord*. Open your Bible today—start with Psalm 23 or Psalm 34. Go back to church this Sunday, even if you don’t feel like it. Cry out to Jesus, not in accusation, but in surrender. He is waiting for you with open arms. *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest"* (Matthew 11:28, WEB). Your trial will not last forever, but your response to it will shape your eternity. Choose faith. Choose Jesus. He is worth it.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.
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