Redledbetter1
Humble Servant of All
In the past few months, God has brought a woman into my life. I did not expect to fall in love with her but I did. However, she has many issues, including depression, possible BPD, and alcoholism. She pushes the people away in her life that TRULY care for her, including me lately. I have been praying that she would be healed and that God would unite us in marriage one wonderful day. But, I feel I'm being selfish, that somewhere in my heart I'm praying for her to be healed so that we can marry instead of praying for her to be healed for God's reason. I have poured my heart out to God and he knows the immense love I have for her. He knows the hopes that I do carry for us but I feel like, right now, knowing what she is going through and how she is living that a relationship, romantically, wouldn't be healthy for me at all. I just pray to the Lord that I would focus my prayer for her on her healing and growing closer to Him instead of my selfish desires. He knows I love her anyway and He knows my future desires with her but that isn't the most important thing right now. What should take priority in my heart is for the Lord to guide her into a relationship with Him instead of me right now. I just pray that I would focus on that for now instead of any self interests. I ask for all of you to unite with me in prayer for her to be healed of all past hurt, to be able to forgive the past, and come to a peace with it in a relationship with the Lord. The romantic stuff can wait, even though I don't want to wait, I know focusing on her spiritually is the right thing to do and ask of God. Sorry for the novel here
All this was just on my heart this morning and I wanted to put it out there. Please pray for her. I thank you all for your prayers and thoughts.
All this was just on my heart this morning and I wanted to put it out there. Please pray for her. I thank you all for your prayers and thoughts.
