Kristijan
Disciple of Prayer
I am seriously thinking about committing suicide very soon! I am thinking about suicide almost every other day. I tend to get very angry easily at my family at home, or at work. Nothing is going positive in my life. I have no friends, never had a girlfriend. I have been without a friend since elementary school. I am now 22 years old. I am failing most of my classes in college. I am also very shy, and can't keep a conversation going. I always look so creepy and serious. I have absolutely no talent, I have very bad memory, I am also very terrible at math. I am not good at anything! I find myself very unattractive and I just want to kill myself. I always feel very tired, sleepy, angry, sad, depressed. I just want to cry myself to death sometimes! I graduated high school in 2010 and am now in community college barely passing and it is the year 2014. I don't even think I will finish community college in 2014. Might take me another year 2015 or 2016 because of my BAD MEMORY and lack of concentration. I can't remember anything I see, hear or learn. I forget everything I learn in like 5 minutes. I do not want to see a doctor or take any depression pills. I think it is a waste of time and money. Since my family can't afford a doctor or health insurance. I have been praying every now and then. Hoping for a miracle to happen or my life to transform soon. Seems like nothing is working. I need a miracle blessing very soon! I want to forgive and be forgiven for all of my sins that I have done in my entire life.
My miracle I wish for is to be very close to God. I want to be like Jesus. Love everybody, make people smile. I want the ability to remember all prayers and the ability to pray for others without reading from a book. I simply can't even remember a prayer. My wish is to become rich and travel the world and help people in need. Give to charity, change people's lives and the world and make my family proud. Please pray for me
I am in desperate need of a miracle or life transformation. I just want to be happy all the time, help others, do good in school and finish a really good college and help and make my family proud.
My miracle I wish for is to be very close to God. I want to be like Jesus. Love everybody, make people smile. I want the ability to remember all prayers and the ability to pray for others without reading from a book. I simply can't even remember a prayer. My wish is to become rich and travel the world and help people in need. Give to charity, change people's lives and the world and make my family proud. Please pray for me
I am in desperate need of a miracle or life transformation. I just want to be happy all the time, help others, do good in school and finish a really good college and help and make my family proud.
