mysaviormylord
Prayer Warrior
There's a huge issue that I am struggling with. I am a young adult still living at home with my parents(traditional family arrangement in my culture). My parents are very negative towards me out of all my siblings. My father isn't a Christian and greatly dislikes me(this is not an exaggeration). We haven't ever had a good relationship. He's almost implied some non truthful things to my mother that never happened. He is quick to label me as a whore, lesbian, pregnant(if I feel sick), etc. Please pray that Jesus changes his heart. Also my mother and I from time to time have a good relationship on the surface but there is some kind of problem deep down. I am constantly being screamed at, put down, and hear negative after negative about myself from her. It's made life difficult even by taking one day at a time. It's so hard to live like this in a constant put down state. I wish my parents would bless instead of curse me. Please pray for God to change their hearts. Right now I am in major misery as my mother is either ignoring me, talking smack about me to my father, or saying something negative if she has to ask me something. She walks past me and gives me the cold shoulder. She asked me for forgiveness at church and after I told her I basically needed more than 30 seconds to forgive her she went back to acting the same after church and today. She won't ask me how work was, good morning, or even invite me to dinner. Yesterday I had to skip dinner because I wasn't invited while the rest of my siblings were. I really am at the point where I wonder if she doesn't love me anymore. I believe she admitted that she had no patience or love left for me a while ago when we were going through the same cycle or these problems. These relationships problems keep happening and happening all year long. I admit that I actually have not done anything major or unchristian that would cause them disappointment. I have not been sneaking out to see anyone, have not been doing anything illegal. I go to church regularly and not just for show. I am not perfect but I try my hardest to be a good Christian. In fact, I am surprised that my parents have never been proud of me, never bless me, and are unthankful for having an obedient and genuine Christian daughter. I cannot go to my church for help because my mom would sway everyone into her side. The only place I can get prayers from would be at different churches about this situation. I really don't know what's at the bottom of this situation at the root. It really may be that my mother for some reason cannot love me. Maybe she didn't bond with me as a baby/child. Or maybe I remind her of something bad. I mean this is a very serious situation somewhere deep down streaming from somewhere where she either can't respect me or I am a constant irritation to her.
