Bleugrll
Humble Prayer Partner
Hello there,
I have already written you all a couple times so far about different situations I am currently going through. The biggest battle so far that I deal with is I'm tired of my life, I have so much pain and unforgiveness. I have felt for so very long that god has allowed to much to happen to me and I regret my mother giving birth to me. Last year I was put out on the street by my grandmother and aunt, at that time I had no job, no car, and no money. I still have the horrible flashbacks from that horrible situation, I found out that I gave no friends who stuck by me when this happened, some did but not very long. My mom died when I was 15 and then my dad when I was 27. My father was very abusive when she died and the flashbacks from what he's done to me won't leave either. My siblings have suffered as much as well, all 3 of us are homeless, my brother is addicted to drugs and my sister is bipolar. Our family members have done nothing but criticized us and judged us, why does God just sits up in heaven and does nothing???? All I know is stress, tragedy, and loss. My immediate family is the only one that was destroyed by these chain of events. I wish my mother never had me and I mean that, I feel God has let me down continuously and I do not feel his love or presence at all, that is why I am seeking for your prayers not just for me but for my sister and brother also. We all need a home to call our own and transportation as well. My tumor has returned probably from all the stress and anguish I deal with everyday with my thoughts. Please pray, thanks....
I have already written you all a couple times so far about different situations I am currently going through. The biggest battle so far that I deal with is I'm tired of my life, I have so much pain and unforgiveness. I have felt for so very long that god has allowed to much to happen to me and I regret my mother giving birth to me. Last year I was put out on the street by my grandmother and aunt, at that time I had no job, no car, and no money. I still have the horrible flashbacks from that horrible situation, I found out that I gave no friends who stuck by me when this happened, some did but not very long. My mom died when I was 15 and then my dad when I was 27. My father was very abusive when she died and the flashbacks from what he's done to me won't leave either. My siblings have suffered as much as well, all 3 of us are homeless, my brother is addicted to drugs and my sister is bipolar. Our family members have done nothing but criticized us and judged us, why does God just sits up in heaven and does nothing???? All I know is stress, tragedy, and loss. My immediate family is the only one that was destroyed by these chain of events. I wish my mother never had me and I mean that, I feel God has let me down continuously and I do not feel his love or presence at all, that is why I am seeking for your prayers not just for me but for my sister and brother also. We all need a home to call our own and transportation as well. My tumor has returned probably from all the stress and anguish I deal with everyday with my thoughts. Please pray, thanks....
