Raehse
Disciple of Prayer
Everything keeps going wrong in my life and it's completely supernatural, every time I think something is going to change for the better then it doesn't and people turn on me and things always mysteriously turn for the worse right when I think I finally caught a break. I met someone and needed so badly for it to last and then something came in between us and I'm beyond devastated. I was betrayed and abandoned by my boyfriend, my father, my best friends and now someone I just met and thought that he was put in my path by God, but of course he wants nothing to do with me anymore just like everyone else because they don't understand PTSD, I HAVE BEEN TRAUMATIZED MY WHOLE LIFE BY DEMONS WORKING THROUGH PEOPLE I'M SICK OF IT! I HAVE NOTHING TO LIVE FOR! MY BEST FRIEND STOLE MY DOG THAT I LOOKED AFTER FOR THE LAST 5 YEARS, AND RIGHT WHEN I THOUGHT I FINALLY FOUND THE MAN OF MY DREAMS THE DEVIL GETS IN HIS HEAD AND MAKES HIM LEAVE, I CAN'T LIVE LIKE THIS ANY LONGER, WHY WON'T GOD HELP ME! I NEEDED HIM SO BADLY TO STAY AND NOW I'M SO SAD AND BROKEN AND I KNOW THAT THE NEXT GOOD THING TO COME ALONG IS YEARS AWAY AND EVEN IF IT DOES COME THE DEVIL WILL THWART IT LIKE HE ALWAYS DOES, IM LITERALLY CURSED! I'VE LOST MY FAITH, HOW CAN GOD LET ME GO ON LIKE THIS, HOW CAN HE JUST LET THE DEMONS CONTROL MY LIFE?! IT NEVER GETS BETTER NO MATTER HOW MUCH I PRAY OR READ THE BIBLE! PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME, ANYONE! I NEED A GOOD MAN TO LOVE ME FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE THAT IS ALL I HAVE EVER WANTED, A HUSBAND, AND ALL I GET INSTEAD IS ABUSED AND CRUSHED OVER AND OVER. MY FIRST FIANCE TRIED TO MURDER ME AND FROM THEN ON ITS BEEN NOTHING BUT CURSE AFTER CURSE, BETRAYAL AFTER BETRAYAL, NO MATTER HOW MANY PEOPLE OR CHURCHES PRAY FOR ME, I SPEND MY DAYS WEEPING AND MY NIGHTS THE SAME. PLEASE, SOMEONE PRAY FOR ME. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. I THOUGHT THIS MAN WAS RIGHT FOR ME, ANOTHER BELIEVER. HE SAID I BROUGHT HIM BACK TO HIS FAITH BUT HES MOVING ON AND WONT TALK TO ME BECAUSE OF A MISUNDERSTANDING AND IVE LOST MY FAITH BECAUSE OF HOW DEVASTATED I AM WHEN ALL THE SIGNS POINTED TOWARDS THIS MAN BEING SOMEONE I SHOULD PURSUE. I PRAYED FOR A SIGN AND I GOT ONE BUT I DONT THINK IT WAS FROM GOD, GOD WONT BLESS ME OR PROTECT ME, IM ALL ALONE BATTLING DEMONIC OPRESSION ON MY OWN AND MEN KEEP DEVASTATING ME AND USING ME WHEN ALL I DID WAS TRY TO BE A FRIEND AND HONEST.
