We hear the depth of your pain, and our hearts ache with you. The despair and anger you’re expressing are real, and we want you to know that you are not alone—even if it feels that way right now. The feelings of abandonment, worthlessness, and rage are overwhelming, and we grieve with you in this place of suffering. But we must also speak truth into this darkness, because the enemy would love nothing more than to keep you isolated in these lies.
First, let us address the most critical truth: **God does care about you.** Deeply. Fiercely. Even when it doesn’t feel like it. The Bible tells us, *"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit"* (Psalm 34:18). You may not *feel* His presence, but feelings are not always truth. The fact that you’re crying out—even in anger—means your spirit is still reaching for Him, even if you don’t realize it. And He *is* reaching back. *"Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you! See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands"* (Isaiah 49:15-16). You are not forgotten. You are not a mistake. You are not "just a POS." You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14), and your life has value—even if you can’t see it right now.
We must also rebuke the lie that God has given you a "shitty life" out of cruelty. The pain you’re experiencing is real, but it is not God’s design for you. The world is broken because of sin—*our* sin, *humanity’s* sin—and that brokenness brings suffering. But God did not create you to be abandoned in it. He entered into this broken world *Himself* through Jesus Christ to suffer *with* you and *for* you. Jesus knows what it is to feel forsaken (Matthew 27:46), to be despised and rejected (Isaiah 53:3), to carry unimaginable pain. He did not remain distant—He *became* the suffering so that you would never have to carry it alone. *"Surely he took up our pain and bore our suffering"* (Isaiah 53:4). If you are feeling alone, it is because the enemy wants you to believe that lie. But Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life (John 14:6), and He is *here* with you in this moment.
We must also address the anger you’re directing toward God. It’s okay to be honest with Him about your rage—He can handle it. In fact, many of the Psalms are filled with raw, unfiltered cries of anger and despair toward God. *"Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God"* (Psalm 42:5). But we must also warn you: bitterness and hatred toward God will only deepen your pain. It will isolate you further. The enemy wants you to turn away from the only One who can truly heal you. *"See to it that no one falls short of the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many"* (Hebrews 12:15). We urge you to release this anger—not because God doesn’t deserve your honesty, but because clinging to it will destroy you.
You say you have nobody, but we are here with you now. And more importantly, Jesus is here. He is the friend who sticks closer than a brother (Proverbs 18:24). He is the Good Shepherd who leaves the ninety-nine to find the one lost sheep (Luke 15:4-6). He is the one who says, *"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest"* (Matthew 11:28). You may feel like you’re screaming into the void, but He *hears* you. He *sees* you. And He *loves* you—so much that He died for you while you were still a sinner (Romans 5:8). That is not the action of a God who doesn’t care. That is the action of a God who *refuses* to let you go.
We must also speak to the self-loathing in your words. Calling yourself "ugly" and a "POS" is not only painful to hear—it is a direct attack from the enemy. Satan wants you to believe you are worthless so that you will give up. But God says you are His masterpiece (Ephesians 2:10), created for a purpose. Your worth is not defined by your pain, your appearance, or your circumstances. Your worth is defined by the price Jesus paid for you on the cross. *"You were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies"* (1 Corinthians 6:20). You are not a mistake. You are not an accident. You are a child of the King, and He calls you by name (Isaiah 43:1).
Now, let us pray for you.
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up this precious child of Yours who is in so much pain. Lord, we ask that You would break through the darkness that feels so thick right now. We rebuke the lies of the enemy that say You don’t care, that say this life is not worth living, that say this person is unloved and unwanted. In the mighty name of Jesus, we declare that these lies have no power here.
Father, we ask that You would reveal Yourself to them in a tangible way. Let them feel Your presence like a warm embrace, like a light breaking through the storm. Remind them that You are close to the brokenhearted, that You collect every tear in a bottle (Psalm 56:8), and that You have not forgotten them. Lord, if they do not know You personally, we ask that You would draw them to Yourself. Let them hear Your voice calling their name, and let them respond. If they have wandered from You, we ask that You would pursue them with Your relentless love, just as You pursued the prodigal son (Luke 15:20).
We pray against the spirit of despair and hopelessness that has taken hold. We command it to leave in Jesus’ name. Fill this person with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). Replace their anger with Your love, their bitterness with Your grace, and their self-hatred with the truth of who they are in Christ. Remind them that they are fearfully and wonderfully made, that they are chosen, holy, and dearly loved (Colossians 3:12).
Lord, we ask that You would surround them with people who will speak life into them, who will remind them of Your truth when they forget. Give them the courage to reach out for help, to share their pain with someone who can walk with them. And if they are struggling with thoughts of self-harm or suicide, we ask that You would intervene. Send Your angels to guard their mind and heart. Let them know that their life has purpose, that their story is not over, and that You are not done with them yet.
We pray for healing—emotional, spiritual, and physical. Touch every wound, every memory, every place of pain, and bring restoration. Let them experience Your love in a way that leaves no room for doubt. And Lord, if there is unconfessed sin in their life that is contributing to this pain, we ask that You would bring it to light. Give them the humility to repent and the grace to receive Your forgiveness. Remind them that if we confess our sins, You are faithful and just to forgive us and cleanse us from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9).
Finally, Father, we ask that You would give them hope. Not just for tomorrow, but for eternity. Let them see that this life is temporary, but Your love is forever. Let them fix their eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of their faith (Hebrews 12:2). And when the pain feels too heavy to carry, remind them that You are carrying it with them.
We ask all of this in the powerful, matchless name of Jesus Christ, the name above all names, the only name by which we can be saved (Acts 4:12). Thank You, Lord, for Your faithfulness. Thank You for never giving up on us. We trust You to move in this situation, and we declare that healing, restoration, and breakthrough are coming. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
To the one reading this: We know this pain feels unbearable right now. We know the anger feels justified. But we urge you—do not let the enemy steal another moment of your life. You are not alone. You are not forgotten. And your life *does* matter. If you are struggling with thoughts of self-harm or suicide, please reach out to someone—a pastor, a counselor, a trusted friend, or even a crisis hotline. You do not have to carry this by yourself.
And if you have never truly surrendered your life to Jesus, we invite you to do so now. He is the only one who can give you the peace and purpose you’re longing for. You can pray something like this:
*"Jesus, I am broken. I am angry. I am lost. But I believe that You are real, and I believe that You love me. I believe that You died for my sins and rose again so that I could have life. I ask You to forgive me for my sins, for my anger toward You, for my self-hatred. I surrender my life to You. Come into my heart, be my Lord and Savior, and help me to walk with You. I need You. Thank You for loving me. In Your name I pray, Amen."*
If you prayed that prayer, we rejoice with you! The angels in heaven are celebrating (Luke 15:10). We encourage you to find a Bible-believing church where you can grow in your faith and be surrounded by a community of believers. You are not alone anymore. You are a child of God, and your future is filled with hope.
