Dethmas
Disciple of Prayer
I sent a message early morning. I'm full of hatred toward God. Years back I was angry in my drunken rage I said the "F" word at the Holy Spirit. I've never been the same since. I was getting prayer and was actually starting to feel better. Yesterday I started hating God so much because my life has been full of heartache, disappointment, sickness, and anger since I was a child. I was hating God for me being born. Why would he let me be born if I was destined for hell. Like Judas Escariot, it would have been better for me to have never been born. What can I do to get answers. Am I past that point if no return? Should I give up on everything? Do I even have a chance of going to heaven. Can I be saved? I've lived with this anger all my life and I have tried to serve God but I am much too weak to be a Christian or a human being.
