lovemykids
Prayer Warrior
I spent the night with a friend of the person who hurt me. Learning and understanding him. I can't really sleep or think too much on my own. It's like I'm waiting for someone to give me the answer to what I should do. I have no idea what to do. God says forgive all and I want to, but it might be easier said than done. One of his friends seems to really want me to forgive him, then others understand more. I saw his face one day; he did assure me he was sorry. How sorry can he be. God, I'm praying that you please give me the heart to forgive and that everyone learns so much out of this. That it makes him a better person. That people become better people because they see the effect it can have on people. It hurts the relationship you actually want to be in. When you feel sick to kiss someone you actually love, it feels really bad. When they seem to not feel the same about you because of something like this, you feel like what did I do wrong. I mostly laughed and learned by being around these people, but it just helped pass time without going destructive inside. Is my life and my health more important than taking someone else's whole life away? I don't know. I pray that you let people see if I forgive for this, it's not going to be easy or just forgiveness. There has to be change in that person. I learned that God, no matter the religion, has the same purpose. No matter the religion, the rules of God are so similar. I pray his friend listens and takes him to church and to counseling. I pray God that the people I need will be there. I can't stay up every night thinking about life. I keep pushing my fears away and covering them up. It's not like me to go out. Being home made me feel overwhelmed.
