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I'm just so sad. I feel like I've been hit so hard. I just cry all the time. My parents are in the midst of some marital issues. We believe my dad has depression, and it's affected everyone in my family. I've tried to talk with my dad, but every time he tells me that I'm immature and stupid. It hurts. It hurts so badly. I go to church, and I love God so much, but I have no friends at church. He has blessed me with one amazing and loyal best friend, but she doesn't understand what I'm going through. I don't understand why my dad would put me through this! I also have been praying to God to help me grow taller. I haven't, and it's the one thing that I would love more than anything in life. I went to the hospital today, and I have so many ear infections. While the nurse was taking my weight, she also recorded my height. My height is 4 feet 11.5 inches. I literally cried right there. I get picked on for being short, and I'm so tired of it. I was volunteering at a local children's center, and one of the children pointed out that I was so short. I wanted to cry again. I cannot tell you how much I want to grow! I would literally do anything to be 5 feet 5 inches. I always refer to John 14:13 that says, "You can ask for anything in my name, and I will do it, so that the Son will bring glory to the Father." I have asked and prayed and asked and prayed for height in His name. Nobody understands what I'm going through, and I just really need God to answer my prayers! I'm fifteen years old, and I'm tired. I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of praying and hoping. This has been going on for eighteen months. I've written so many posts on here, and nothing has happened. I got mad at my mom today for giving me the short genes. My sister and brother are both tall as my dad is very tall. I cannot tell you how many tears have rolled down my face writing this! Please, Lord, for the last time, I need YOU! I know it's in God's timing, but I can't take this anymore. I'm sad, tired, angry, lonely, and short, and I don't want to be like this anymore! God please!!! Please just help God!!! My mom doesn't even understand how I hate being so short. She's 5 feet 2.5 inches. I ask God everyday where my height comes from. I know my mother is short, but I should be at least her height, if not taller. I know that He has a plan for me, but I don't think that it involves growing taller. The doctor even said I'm pretty much done growing. It's sad, and nobody understands!!! It's so hard. On top of everything, we don't have much money. Live is so rough. I wish that all of this would just stop! I'm tired of being tired. I would never result to suicide. I just don't have the passion for life anymore.

