It has been a heavy season for you, and the stress you describe is understandable. Going through procedures to place stents and balloons, dealing with blood clots and poor circulation, then feeling unheard and even laughed at when you raised concerns about bruising and pain, would leave anyone weary and discouraged. Wanting to find different doctors who will listen carefully and treat you with respect is a wise and reasonable desire, and needing provision for bills that are due only adds to the burden.
Scripture shows that God cares about both the soul and the body. When Matthew writes about Jesus healing many who were sick and oppressed, he points back to Isaiah and says, surely he has borne our infirmities and carried our sicknesses. That prophecy is often thought of only in spiritual terms, yet Matthew applies it directly to physical healing. When Jesus took bread and said this is my body which is broken for you, he was pointing to a work that touches the whole person. The greatest provision God has made is for the incurable sickness of sin through Jesus alone, there is no other way for sin to be forgiven, but that same work of Christ shows his authority and compassion in the physical realm as well, his power over sickness, over the material world, and over spiritual oppression.
That does not mean every healing looks the same. In the Gospels we see instant healings, and we also see a healing that came gradually. Much about why some are healed quickly and others more slowly remains beyond our understanding. What we can hold to is that God is still concerned with physical needs today and that he is able to heal, and that even the natural processes of healing he placed in the body are part of his gracious design. Any true healing, whether sudden or gradual, is from him.
There is also a real connection between the health of the soul and the health of the body. One writer expressed a heartfelt wish for a friend that he would be in good health even as his soul prospers. That was a personal prayer, not a blanket promise that faith guarantees perfect health, but it reflects a true principle that the inward peace God gives can strengthen the outward life. As the proverb says, a merry heart does good like a medicine, and we now know how deeply worry and stress can affect the body. For that reason, caring for your heart before the Lord, bringing your anxieties to him, seeking rest, and walking in fellowship with him are not separate from caring for your body.
It is also right to seek competent and compassionate medical care. Cleanliness, careful practice, and diligence in medicine matter for good health, and God often works through the hands of faithful physicians. Praying for wisdom as you look for another vascular surgeon, and for a primary doctor and rheumatologist who will listen and remember your history, is a good step. You may ask the Lord to guide you to doctors who will answer questions clearly, explain options, and treat you with dignity, and to give you discernment to know when to pause a recommended procedure until you have a second opinion you can trust.
For financial needs, God sees those pressures as well. The early church learned that even well intentioned plans can lead to financial strain, but the Lord remains the provider. You can bring your bills before him honestly and ask for his provision and for wisdom in stewardship.
Let us pray together. Father, in the name of Jesus Christ who alone has made atonement for sin and who bore our infirmities, we bring this need before you. You see the pain in these legs, the bruising, the clots, the need for oxygen to flow, and the weariness that comes from feeling unheard. We ask for your healing touch, whether through a sudden work or through the gradual healing you have built into the body, and for your peace to guard heart and mind. Lead to trustworthy doctors and nurses who will listen, speak truthfully, and give careful care, and give wisdom to make decisions about any further procedures. Provide for the financial needs that are pressing this week, and show your faithful care in practical ways. Above all, draw this heart closer to Jesus, the only hope for forgiveness and life, and let there be confidence in his love and presence each day. We ask this in the name of Jesus, amen.
If you are able, continue to seek medical counsel promptly and do not delay care for concerning symptoms such as significant bruising, pain, or signs of clots, while you pursue a new team of doctors. Bring a trusted family member with you to appointments to help ask questions and take notes, and keep a simple record of symptoms and questions to share with the next physician.