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godsbabygirl
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Father in the name of jesus i come to you humbly. I have sinned and I trully confess. Lord I have been through so many difficult seasons back to back to back and im just constantly going through. I dont understand my life, every area is suffering. I ask you to reveal to me in a mighty special way the plans you have in my life beacuse I dont understand. I have never been trully happy even after my husband passed i had been lonely. Lord my life has been literally hell from my health to my job. I feel a great deal like JOB did with everything being taken from him, however i am a sinner before you. I want to be happy God and you know all of my desires, and how much i believe things are going to come to pass. but i just get so weary and tired of going through. i want to start fasting again and cleasnse my mind because i want to hear from you. I need your direction like never before please hear me and kjnow that im tired of being a depressed Christian I have to take medicine because i cant deal with all of the events that occurred in my life. Lord I worship praise you, getting back into my word, and you still seem so far away. HELP ME PLEASE. I feel suicidal but i never plan on acting out anything because you will never forgive me. I want deliverance. Im pleading the blood of Jesus to save me once again. I pray for Dougs salvation and for me to be able to pray with him. Lord I want to see your will be done in my life, but i need patience to wait. At times i dont love myself and i want everything back that satan had stolen from my life including my innocence as a child, becasuse of my childhood i am suffering with social problems,mistrust and other issues. I often hate myself and my life. I know my family depends on me especially my mother who is disabled and I want to be here for her. I want a family and I deserve a good husband who fears God, and that would treat me right, I want children I want it all Gods way, but i always loose hope because of the things that happened to me. I still found a way to forgive my husband,and i want to move on. Jesus im begging you to reveal yourself as i submit to you in my prayer and fasting. I want to be a better person but i need you. Im going through so badly and im holding on. I dont want to stay in Egypt
